Shawn Mendes Imagines

Trust

Summary: Reader finds out Shawn has been cheating on her.
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Shawn said that he would be home by 8:00 PM. I knew he would be a bit late cause he's been working extra hard on his music for a few days. It's 8:40 now and he still isn't home. But I worry too much... he must be caught up in something.

9:30 now. Now I can worry a bit. He usually messages me to let me know that he could be even more late. I'm on the couch thinking all the reasons why he isn't back yet.

10:15
That's it I'm afraid now. I dial Andrew and he picks up on the third ring.
"Y/N? What happened?"
"Hey Andrew I was wondering if Shawn was with you right now, he said he'd be back hours ago" I explain quickly
"Oh well he left the studio about 3 hours ago..."
I don't say anything.
"He must be out with Brian don't worry"
"Okay... thanks anyway bye!" And I hung up. I walk to our shared bedroom and decide to take a bath. I get the water running and right before getting in, leave a message for Shawn. That's when I heard a faint vibration from the side of the bed. It was his phone. Typical Shawn. I go over and see all my messages... along with someone named Cathy...
'See you next time 😉'
What the hell does that mean? I shake my head and head to the bathroom. I have a quick shower and put one of his hoodies which don't fit me but it feels cozy. I was about to call Brian when I heard the front door open. He's finally back. I think to myself and go out of the bed room.

"Hi honey! What took you so long?" I take in his appearance... messy hair and a few buttons undone. I decide to ignore it.
"Huh? Oh yeah sorry. I uh I was out with Brian."
"Oh and you left your phone here"
"Right well have you seen it?"
"Yeah it's in the bedroom by your night stand." I say pointing towards the room.
"Thanks baby" He walks by me and gives me a kiss on the forehead.

That isn't his scent. Y/N stop thinking like this. He would never... maybe he would. STOP. I argue with my thoughts for a while and head back to the bed room. Shawn was laying on his bed with his phone in his hand. As soon as he notices me he puts his phone down and turns of the lights. I guess he must be tired. I don't think much of it and just go to sleep.

~in the morning~
I wake up and see that Shawn isn't here. I go to the kitchen first and see a note on the table.

Sorry babe. Had to go early today and  didn't wanna wake you.
P.s. I didn't forget my phone this time ;)
-S

Well I guess I have the whole house to myself for the entire day. I do my morning routine and decide to call my best friends over.  All 3 of us used to live in the same apartment until I moved in with Shawn. I miss them a lot but Shawn is amazing.
The bell rings and I rush over to the door. Hannah comes in first and hugs me tightly. "Hey tiny we missed you!!"
"Missed you too" I see Jessica behind her with a bottle of wine. Of course. "Hey Jess!" 
"Yeah yeah enough 'hey's and 'oh I missed you'. Time to spill some tea sisters"

After 2 hours of some serious catching up on gossip, Jess asks me "So how's my favorite boyfriend of yours"
"What? Ohhh you mean YOUR favorite boyfriend that SHE has had" Hannah adds.
"He's... good" I say pausing a bit.
"Why the hesitation?" Hannah asks. Usually she's never this straight forward but she had one glasses too many.
"Oh it's nothing I'm sure"
"Nope tell us" Jess says.
"I mean yesterday he said he would be back by 8 but he's been coming late for a few days and.."
Hannah cuts me off by saying
"Why late?"
"He's working extra hard for some new music"
"Continue"
"Yeah and so usually he would tell me that he'll be more late but he didn't so I got worried and called Andrew and he said that Shawn had left a few hours back.." I say and pause.
"Shit please don't tell me what I think is happening here" Jess says while widening her eyes.
"He didn't take his phone so I saw a few messages on his screen... and a girl named Cathy said 'see you next time' with a wink face." I pause again to see the girl's' reaction. Both of them were fully invested in what I was saying.
"...and he came home and his hair was messy and a few buttons of his shirt were undone... and he smelled different" I say the last part as a whisper.
"...and he didn't kiss me once yesterday... not even in the morning..."

There is a brief silence and Jess speaks up "Well fuck."
"Do you think he.." Hannah says
"NO HE WOULDN'T! At least I think he wouldn't..." I say.
Jess pulls me in for a short hug and as she pulls back she says "Honey you know I love you and I would strangle any one who tried to hurt you but..." she took a deep breath and continued "you don't know for sure if he did or didn't... you need to ask him."
I just nod. We talk a bit more and they try their best not to divert the topic to Shawn. Soon it was 6 PM and Hannah had a date so both of them went back.

I sigh and think about what Jess said. Better broken up than in an ignorant relationship. I knew Shawn would be late again so I watch Netflix for a while. One and a half hour later Shawn comes back. He walks up to me and kisses me but I don't kiss back.
"What is it Y/N?" He wrinkles his forehead.
I shake my head "You should go change"
He doesn't say anything and does what I say. After he had freshened up he sits on the couch beside me. I still don't know if it's true or not but the I had packed a small bag anyway.

"Okay so tell me"
I take a deep breath and say "Shawn who's Cathy?"
He seems a little surprised by my question "Wh-What?"
"You heard me. Who is she?"
"Y/N it's no one.."
I give him a 'oh really?' look. "Did you go through my messages?" He asks.
"You know I would never. I saw her text on your screen yesterday when you forgot your phone"
"Baby listen to me..."
"Did you cheat on me?"
He doesn't say anything. By this time tears have formed in my eyes.
"How... how long?"
"Y/N.."
"HOW LONG?" I shouted at him.
"4 months but.."
I laugh sarcastically. "Wow"
"She doesn't mean anything to me it was just a stupid mistake and then she wouldn't leave me alone."
"Shawn you could've told me the first time it happened and I would've forgiven you... but 4 months??"
I stand up and so does he.
"For 4 months you made me believe that you were at the studio working late. For 4 months I convinced myself that you could never do that to me. For 4 months I let myself believe you loved me."
"I do love you.."
"Sure"
I rush to our bed room, hot tears rushing down my cheeks. I grab my bag and phone and head for the door. He grabs my arm to stop me "Don't you ever touch me again"
"Y/N I'm so sorry..." he says but doesn't let go of me. I pull my arm away. "Never dare to show me your face again." With that I slam the door behind me and hear his sobs. I rush to the only place I feel safe.

~15 minutes later~
I knock on the door to see Jess. "That bastard!" Is the first things she says as she hugs me and pulls me in. "HANNAH!!" She shouts.
"What?" She peaks out, half of her make up on, and sees me crying my eyes out. "I'm cancelling my date." She goes back to her room.
"He cheated?" Jess questions and I just nod. "Sweetie I'm so sorry". Hannah comes out of her room and asks "What happened?"
I couldn't reply so she looks at Jess and understands "Come here" and hugs me. "Shawn doesn't deserve you. He's stupid to cheat on someone like you." She whispers. By then Jess brings some tissues and hands them to me. "I.. ca..can't b..believe how st..stupid I..I was.." I say sobbing in between. "It's.. all m..my fa..fault"
"No! Never think that way! HE is the one to blame here. Only him." Hannah says.
"Ugh I'm so sorry Han you should be out on your date.. not dealing with my mess.."
"Hey hey hey... I could ditch the whole world for you."
"You should sleep here tonight, in your old room." Jess says
I just nod and get up to go to my room. I fall on the bed and cry into one of the pillows.

We've been together for 2 years. 2 whole years. Was I really that boring? Why couldn't he just tell me?

My thoughts consume me and I slowly fall asleep.

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Converted to the book "Trust"