Why me?

Part 3

I was cleaning up when chris was gone he'd usually be back around 11 tonight I didn't have any friends cause of him everyone left me alone. And drifted away from me .. but it doesn't really matter tho I have my son who is here for me when his father isn't I love my son and I hate to see him watch me get beat I know he's very young and doesn't understand why his father does it but eventually ... he will

''Mommy why does daddy hurt you''

'' why is daddy always gone''

The truth is daddy is gone because daddy likes to cheat on mommy when she's at work and when your at school and the truth is he loves to hurt me when I disobey him he told me I'm so support , clean up , and only love him those are his rules I have to apparently hear everyday I promise when u get a bit older me and you will go find a new home and a new place to live because daddy isn't quite treating us right I do have somebody I am talking to and I bet he will help us .. soon
-end of thoughts -

''Mommy I am hungry '' he jumped on me as I laid and bed giggling for no apparent reason my son was so happy that it was so cute !

''Fine.. fine alr'' ima fix you something to eat I said getting completely up from my bed I looked to my right as I seen chris not there so I knew what that fucking meant he doesn't have time for his ''wife '' or his son which is my seed..

As I got up with my son it took me a few mins just to come back to reality I was crying and I didn't even realize ''why u crying mommy '' I didn't say anything but wiped the hot tears that I had scrolling down my cheek ''I don't cry remember'' I chuckled walked down stairs into the kitchen and began to fix my son some cereal deep down inside I was really hurt but I wouldn't wanna say anything to my son cause he wouldn't quite understand how mommy is feeling

''Eat up'' I said  sitting in front of him my son was happy but he didn't know the truth that was good in a way I didn't wanna hide anything from my son but you know I had too then the voices came again ..

''Just leave him you worthless dumb bitch clearly he doesn't want u are hurt inside why don't u leave him''

'' Just die cause he will kill you soon''

''Your not pretty as you used to be ''
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The voices was right I am dumb and worthless I'm staying with an abuser who doesn't even love me ..

''mommy your doing it again ''

''Doing what exactly'' I was crying again and talking to my self then chris bust into the door

''You ain't make fucking dinner ? You just wanna feed him but not me ''

You could tell he was drunk and high cause I smelt it from under his breath and his eyes wear blood shot read like he been doing hells of drugs within that moment i felt an hard slap go across my face ..

''YOU  DO  NOT DO ANYTHING RIGHT BITCH''

It was true I didn't do anything right I held my cheek and felt the furious pain start to sting then I cried I looked at my son which gave him the cue to go to his room and hide I told him when daddy is talking to mommy you hide and count and hold your bear cause I knew sooner or later chris was gonna hurt our baby boy and it won't. Be good..

(So I'm updating slow cuz it takes me a while to update cuz of school but I will slowly start back updating cuz I low-key don't wanna leave this story hanging -
Passion🤗🍭)