Why me?

Part 4

India p.o.v~

I lost everything since I been with Chris it's hard to leave him , I want to but I can't ... it's hard I know if I leave him I will die...

While Chris was at work today I got up and did my hygiene my son was at school I was gonna go meet one of my friends cuz u haven't seen them in a while .. I've been distance since me and Chris got married
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I never thought one man can destroy your life that thought always came into my head when I did anything , my heart pounded against my chest I was nervous asl.. I was scared asl ... of everything my mentally was gone as I got into the car I turned on some music I didn't care what type of music it was at long it was bumping in my ears while I drived I was good

''Getcha ass out the car '' my friend said as she knocked on my window pretty damn hard thought that bitch would break

'' I'm coming I'm coming'' we was at in and out burger & she didn't noticed I had shades on which was good cuz this bitch would literally act like my whole damn mama and examine my face

'' Why you been distance , don't say cuz you been busy you work one job part time ion got time for the lies '' Kayla said she was irritated with India's absences

''Y-you forgotten I am a mother ? Then I have to cook and clean for him and my husband !'' I didn't wanna mess around and say the wrong thing like oh he's been hitting me and beating every night so I had to say & think of some quickly we walked into the building all I ordered was a milk shake and animal style fries cuz my hungry wasn't that hungry I could go longer without food .

'' I miss the highschool days , we had more fun and more freedom but now we work and get old ''

That was true I was kinda happier back then but now I regret meeting chris

''Is your eye black! '' She said eating her burger at the same time

I was stuck in my words thank god we was nearly outside already but people started to look ... ''calm down I only fell '' that was the same excuse chris preached me to say if anyone. Noticed

''hm you said that the last couple of times is Chris beatin your ass again ? What have I told you LEAVE HIS CRAZY ASS!''

All these thoughts came back ''I. Am going to one day '' just needed to know how to leavehim without dying ...

We sat on the bench together and I began crying onto her holding onto her ...I never felt so miserable and unwanted in my life .. I was bullied and got married to my bully who beats on woman and sleeps with other ppl on me and doesn't even care about his baby boy .

'' It's okay to cry ''

Yeah right when I cried I didn't wanna stop so I wiped my eyes and sat up and looked at her ''follow me home '' I said as I ate a few more bites of my animal style fries that were getting cold

We throw our trash away and we got into our separated cars as she followed behind me she's gonna finally see how I get treated ... finally somebody would belive me and stop calling Christopher a good man

time I got out the car my heart dropped and I walked in already slammed to the floor ..
yeah this is my life but I have no excuse so what's yours ? Was u scared ? Afraid ?