If Love was a man , I'd kill him

Chapter One

        April , 31 , 2005

            9 : 00 Pm (night)

I was sitting in my room revising  for math exam tomorrow ,last exam , in school this year . I was grade Eleven i still have year after this year , then University . Back to the math exam , Math .. I hate this subject , lots . It's just my brain doesn't like it ..

Hey it is not your brain it's your fault .

Shut up brain .

Okay .-.

  Well although i hated math i remember my math teacher always loved my grades i'm good in math .Minutes later my  mom came in to my room .

  "what are you doing ? ". she asked

" Revising for the big math test tomorrow ". I replied

" You must sleep ". She said and went out of my room even without saying good night.

I  Went to the bathroom , brushed my teeth and went to bed after i put my books that i want to take with me the second day , then i drifted into sleep  .

  So this is my mother , she looks good ha? You didn't see her real face .

   May , 1 , 2005

     6 : 00 Am ( morning )

I woke up , went to the bathroom , showered , brushed my teeth and went to dress up for school . After that i went to the kitchen , ate a chocolate sandwich  and i sat to revise for my exam .

I didn't believe it was the last day of school , i didn't ..I was going to miss my friends , but for sure i stayed in touch with my two best friends , Sandy and Dustin . Then my mother woke up and interrupted my thoughts .

  " Did you eat ? ". She asked never looking at me , i felt that she was angry.

  " Yeah ". I replied and turned To go to my room tobring my things for school and well ..to avoid her anger , but before i took my first step she caught my hand and slapped me , putting all her anger on me .

  " To where ?? ". She said smiling that hurt and broken smile .

She's always been like that from the moment my brother Joe died , although she wasn't good , she's one of the devils i don't know why she gave birth to us  if she hates us.So after Joe died everything went to  worst  and worst , we never new the happiness after i ..I killed him...He was only eight years and i was fourteen years old , from two years and four months ..

  " Why ? ". I whispered softly

" You killed him !! ". She yelled

" I-I-I-I " .

" YOUU !!!!!! ". She screamed ..

After some minutes of yelling and fighting , my dad woke up , he pulled me close and hugged me.

Then he started fighting with Mom to stop doing this to me , but he's not always with us he's a well known lawyer we don't see him other than one day in a week , and he is the only one in my life who understands me.

  "I Wish i'd die ".I whispered

  " SSSShhhh you're my only in this life , you must be strong ". He said and whipped my tears , i pulled back smiled a small smile and went to my room .

I looked at my room mirror my face was red , her hand made a red mark on my face , I'll never forget that day..

I picked my books and pencil case then i walked to school without saying good-bye . They were sitting as nothing happened ..

While walking i thought about how lonely i am although i had two besties , but they didn't help alot , they didn't stop the hurt in my heart , or my feeling of being lonely... People used to tell me that I'm too young to be that sad and dark . Trust me i never celebrate my birthdays , but in my seventeenth birthday my father promised me that i could make a birthday party , but i really didn't care . so yeah !

After all i thought , i stopped and looked at my clock the math exam was going to start after fifteen minutes and if i walked like i was walking I'll reach it after ten minutes so i started running so fast , but then BUM !! I fell in the ground with my books and pencil case , the guy was standing in front of me he laughed a little .. He was cute while laughing so i just laughed with him .Then he helped me to stand up ..

" I'm sorry , i was running ".He said picking my books and pencil case

" Yeah ,me too ".i took them and smiled then walked to my school , but he took my hand , so i turned and looked at him .

" Are you going to your school ".He said

" Okay wait I'll take you just let me bring the  car , which school ". He said and smiled

" Britain high school ".

" Okay wait ! ".

" But i ca-". He Cuted me off

" I won't hurt you , i don't hurt i promise ". He said and i just smiled . Then he ran to bring his car ..

  He brought his car and he was looking at me from the window by his  hazel eyes , as if he was telling me to get inside the car so i did . To tell the truth i liked his bad boy look , he is adorable . So when i got inside i noticed a curly guy ..

  "Hey ". I said shyly .

" Hey !! ". He replied showing his dimples

" That's Harry Styles  the Cupcake ". The bad boy said smirking i laughed and looked at Harry  .

" Hey !!! ". Harry yelled

" Hahaha ".I  laughed as the hazel shinning  eye guy smiled at me and he asked ..

" what's your name ? ".

" Jaquilin Stone ".

" Zayn Malik ". he smiled , i shook my head feeling pleasure in my heart deep down ..

  After that we sat in silence the whole way until we were in front of my school .

" Thank you so much ". I said , picked my books and went out of the car.

" No problem ". Zayn replied smiling , i smiled at him and harry . Then waved good-bye to them as they drove away and i entered the school ..

   I felt it was the best morning ever in all the years i had ... It really was the best ...♥

     Xxx hey !!!

     what do you think will happen :'3 Jaquilin is a poor girl :'3 innocent pumpkin :'3

    So tell me your opinion it's so important *----------* ok...? ok.

    thanks for all who are reading so freaking much

   once again your opinion is so important  to me so what do you think will happen next and stuff?