Journal || Be More Chill/Dear Evan Hansen

One: Free.

Journal Entry: One, 20xx

It's over.
Everything that was forced on me, it's over.
I was in so much pain.
I've lost so many people.
I've lost myself.
All because I wanted this stupid girl (sorry Christine) who didn't even like me back.
And Michael, oh god, Michael.
He was there for me even though I blocked him out.
He cared.
But I decided to ditch him, I caused this hole in our friendship that'll never be patched.
He's so distant
So quiet.
He isn't acting like himself anymore.
He isn't the energetic, loving boy I decided to get feelings for last minute.
When I fucked everything up.
He's the opposite of his old self.
He's more...sad.
And it's my fault.