Blood and Tears

chapter-3

Here's chapter 3, I hope you all enjoy, vote and comment! :)-----------------------

The rest of my classes were a drag, I couldn't stop thinking about her...Lucky.

Just sitting there next to her it took all my will power not to pounce on her, she smelled so good, and she looked so beautiful. I'd heard talk about her, how she was a loser and all that crap...but they obviously had no idea what they were saying. I mean..she was nice, truthful, sweet, who wouldn't want to be her friend?! 

I sighed, sitting back in my chair waiting for the last bell to ring,  I sure hop it would ring quick.

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Finally!!

I walked down the hall ready to go someplace other than home, I mean...anywhere. Just as I turned the corner I was pushed into a locker.

"Listen Bitch! I saw you talking to that guy and I'm warning  you now to stay away! I had my eye on him all year and I don't need you coming to ruin what I'vebeen working so hard for." I looked into the fake blue eyes of Carrie Worth.

The school slut, but I guess every school hads to have one, right?

My back hurt, and I looked at her confused, was she talking about Austin? She didn't even know his name fir crying out loud!

"Do you hear me? your worthless! no one would ever want you, you think your so innocent because your a little virgin?! your wrong, what are you a freaking nun? Your certainly not hot at all so stop trying!" 

She shoved me harder into thelocker until I fell, sliding down to the floor while she walked off swingin her stupid blonde hair, I could feel the tears gathering as I looked down. Was she right?

Was I worthless?

"Hey?" I looked up seeing it was Austin looking at me with worry?

I quickly got up, pulling my bag up with me, sniffling. "Oh uh..hwy what are you doing here?" I asked looking down, trying to wipe any sign of tears on my face. 

"I-I was leaving..are you alright?" He kept trying to see my face, thankfully my hair blocked his view "Of course, I'm fine just...something flew in y eye I didn't\t see what it was." I said trying to make sure my voice didn't't tremble at all.  He walked a little closer, to me trying to see. 

"Are you crying? what's wrong Licky?" I let out a short, fake laugh trying to lighten the modd, "No I'm not crying I'm fine..I don't cry." I said, feeling bad that I told a lie. 

"Lucky..." He trailed off, but I cut off before he could continue. 

"I'm sorry but I have to go, I'll see you later Austin." I quickly walked away, I felt horrible. 

I'd been picked on all day, and I lied.

What's next?

Stealing!

I ran down the empty hall, and out the double doors, I needed relief, I needed it quick too. 

What did I do to deserve so much hate from so many people? I'd never spoken to them a day in my life, and somehow they make up things about me that I'm starting to believe is true I mean..why do they do this?

Am I really that useless?

Am I really that much of a waste of space?

I ran throught the door of my house and ran up the steps until I got into the bathroom and sank to the floor crying. 

I reached  into the cabinet and got m y best friend, and my worse enemy.

My razor.

It was the o nly way to solve the problems, the only way to wipe the slate clean.  I added pressure as I moved the cold metal; across my skin, and hissed at the sharp, sting.

The thick, crimson liquid ran from my arm, making a line into my palm, teasing my fingertip until it finally hit the floor. I did it five more times. Just to feel the numb-ness, to feel the one thing I can control. 

I chose how deep, how long, and where. 

I laid there on the cold tile floors, not caring about all the blood that was draining out of me, tears still fell down my cheeks. and I stared at the wall. 

I don't know how long I laid there, but I fell asleep. I don't know if it was the blood loss or if I was just really tired but I fell asleep on the floor.

And I could only hope...

that I didn't wake up the next day.

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There's chapter 3, I know its  short but I was in a rush so I hope you like it :)