Tea & Heartbreak

• Infatuation •

I don't know how you manage to sleep at night. I don't know how you can laugh as if you didn't have any worries.

You moved on pretty quickly, almost as if I never happened.

Almost as if every 'I love you' didn't mean anything.

So tell me, how did you do it?

How did you forget about me just so easily? How did you manage to live your life knowing you destroyed another's?

Moving on is never easy. It is a journey and sadly, it is one without shortcuts.

So tell me, how did you do it?

What was it like leaving me? What was it like when you were hit by the sudden realization that you wanted to be "free" from me?

You ghosted me. There was no other word to describe what you did.

Was it really that bad that in maybe just a matter of a few seconds or minutes, you just decided that you didn't want anything to do with me anymore.

It hurts that the memory of how you left will always stay with me.

It is like a scent which I can't get rid of. It lingers and follows. It's become something that is a part of me. People always seem to tell that the brokenness in my eyes and the bitterness of my words are all because of you.

So tell me, how did you do it?

It's stupid how you liked her before me, then liked her again after me. What's even more stupid is how you're now together after all those times you told me that you simply viewed her as a younger sister.

It won't matter if I was your first relationship because it wasn't real, you know?

I was simply just a bridge. A bridge you had to cross from liking her to being with her.

But for me, you were the whole path and I just don't know where I'm going now that I'm without you.