HER |Seokjin/Jin ff| COMPLETED

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I woke up the next morning in this unfamiliar room. I began to panic. Where am I?! I slowly felt myself lose control. I felt my other, more aggressive side take over my body. I opened the door and walked out of the room and into the hallway. I saw someone just down the hallway doing something. I quickly ran to that person. I pinned him against the wall. "Who are you?! Where am I?! What did that retard get me into?!" I knew it was Jin. I tried to stop my body but, I couldn't. I had to just sit and watch my body hurt someone I really care about.  He looked scared of me. I began to cry. "It's me. It's Jin. You're at my house. Are you okay Ara?" My body wiped my face and noticed that I was crying. "Weak retard! Stop crying! Or I'll hurt him!" My body grabbed Jin neck making so that he couldn't breath. I quickly stopped crying and began to fight for control of my body. I don't know why but, I kinda liked choking him. It made me feel powerful. I shook off that feeling and continued to fight for control. Then someone tackled me to the ground. That was enough for me to win back control of my body. I began to cry again. "I'm so sorry Seokjin Oppa! That wasn't me! I swear! I'm so sorry! I so so sorry!" I sobbed. Yoongi, who tackled me, sat me up and hugged me. Then Jin came over and hugged me. "Why were you like that?" I sniffled and looked at Jin. "When I get scared, something takes over my body and my thoughts. I woke up in that room down the hallway alone. I thought something had happened. So I got scared and it took over." Jin hugged me tighter. "Well, I'm here now. So there is no need to be scared. Plus the others will protect you as well." I smiled. at him. I........this feeling......it's so new to me. I feel....warm. Is this what happiness feels like? "Jin Oppa? What does happiness feel like?" He looked at me, confused.  Then he looked to Yoongi. "Well, happiness is when you feel joy, or contentment. I......don't really know how to explain it but, ummmm. Oh! I know! You like to see the stars. Right?" I nodded. "Every time you see the stars you feel happy." Oh. So that's what happiness is. "So, I was happy to see Cousin Yoongi again?" He nodded. I smiled.  I know what happiness is! I'm so excited! 'Freak!' 'Crazy!' 'Monster' 'Weak!' 'Worthless!' 'Killer!' 'Murder!' 'Creep!' 'Honey! Don't get t close she'll kill you!' ' Do us all a favor and kill yourself!' I looked at Jin, my eyes watering. "Is it true?" I asked him quietly. "Is what true?" He asked confused. I shook my head. "Nothing." They can't true. Right? Are they? Am I a monster? Maybe I should leave. I mean. I am crazy. I could kill someone! But I just got to see Cousin Yoongi again. It is probably for the best if he doesn't get attached. "Jin Oppa? Can I go to the store? Alone. I need to get some......personal items." I pretended to blush. Jin began to blush, badly. "O-Oh! S-Sure! O course!" I hugged my Oppas and left. I'm not going to the store. I'm going to find my 'friends'. I'm a threat to those I love and everyone around me. I can't risk hurting one of the boys, or worse, a child. I mean I just almost killed Jin Oppa THIS MORNING!! I should just leave this earth. I never had a good life anyway. I found the two people I was looking for. "BOYS!" They turned my direction, smirking. "Moonchild! Where were you last night?! I was looking forward to beating you up!!" I sighed. "It doesn't matter! What matters is why I'm here right now!" They nodded, telling me to keep talking. "I want you to beat me to death. JUST!! Not in an alleys near the one I'm always in!" The smiled an evil smile. "Sure, princess." They began to lead the way to the alley that I was gonna die in. "Last words, princess?" I nodded.  Then I sighed. "I love you Jin Oppa. I love you Cousin Yoongi Oppa. I love you BTS. This is goodbye. I'll see you in the next life." I smiled. Then nodded, telling them that they could beat me now. It hurt like he** but that is how monsters like me are supposed to die. We are supposed to die painfully. I deserve this. Now no one has to worry about me hurting them. No one has to worry about 'HER' trying to hurt them. No one has to worry about 'HER' trying to kill them. No one has to worry about avoiding 'HER'. I smiled as I felt myself slipping into the pitch blackness of death. There is no more 'HER' to worry about. 'HER' is gone. 'HER' is gone for forever. 'HER' is never coming back. Goodbye horrible world.

Jin P.O.V                                            

"Ara is taking a while don't you think?" I asked. The other boys nodded. "Maybe we should go look for her. I have a feeling something is wrong. Something was wrong with her when she left." Yoongi said. "I agree. We should go look for her. She was acting weird before we left." The other boys looked at us. "What do you mean 'Weird'?" Asked Namjoon. "She said something like, 'Jin Oppa? Is it true?' I'm not gonna lie, it confused the heck out of me." Taehyung's eyes widened. "Hyung? Do you think that maybe the voices in head told her some nasty shit?" I looked at him. "First. LANGUAGE!!! Second. I don't really know Taehyung." Then Hoseok spoke. "Did she seem sad?" I nodded. "Her eyes were watering a little bit." Jungkook gasped. "Last time she cried she tried to get herself beat! What if-!?" Jimin cut him off. "She is trying to get herself beat again?!" My eyes widened. Yoongi gasped. Namjoon looked shook. Taehyung looked like he was still trying to process what Jimin just said. Jungkook's jaw dropped. Hoseok's face paled. "S-she wouldn't! Right?!" I said looking at the others for support. "She wouldn't do that. Right?!" I was on the verge of crying. I can't lose her! After all, she is my first love. "I-I'm sure she is fine. Just in case, let's go look for her." I looked at Namjoon. I gulped. I'm so scared. What if something happened to her?! What if she is in trouble?! I just told her this morning that I would protect her!! I began to cry. "I CAN'T LOSE HER!!!!!! I CAN'T!!!!!" Yoongi came over to me and hugged me. "Hyung. We will find her. She'll be okay." I took a deep breath. I need to find her. Sitting around and crying about her being missing isn't going to help. I stood up with a determined face on. "Let's go find her." We all walked out of the house. We looked at the store, and the alleyway she loves. We didn't find her so we spread out all over town. I was looking down every alleyway, inside every store, in every park but, I still didn't find her. Then I found, what looked like a body, in alleyway. I went over to the body and looked at the person's face. "OH MAH GAWD!!! ARA!!!" I shook her body. No response. I called the boys and them to meet me at the nearest hospital. I also told them that I found Ara. I picked her up and ran to the hospital. When we got there they took her away and began to save her. I began to cry. I felt someone hug me. "Shhhh. Hyung. She'll be fine. She'll get through this."  I heard Jungkook say. I just sat there crying until they called my name. I ran over to the doctor. "DOCTOR!!!! Please tell me that she is okay!!!!" He looked down. "Some days I really hate my job." He said quietly. He cleared his throat. "I'm sorry sir. She died a couple minutes ago." I fell to my knees. "This can't be happening. THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENING!!!!! SHE COULDN'T HAVE DIED!!!! SHE CAN'T LEAVE ME!!!!! She can't leave me!!!!" I began to sob again. "Sir. If you would like you can see her one last time." I nodded. "Can my friends come to?" The doctor nodded. He led us to a room. "She's in there. Once again, I'm sorry for your loss sir." I walked in and there she was. Her beautiful face pale. Her eyes glassy. I went over to her. "Ara. Ara why? I love you. Please don't leave me. PLEASE!!!! I CAN'T LOSE YOU!!!! I NEED YOU!!!!! I need you." I cried over her pale, dead body. I played with her hair. "Ara. This is the last time I will ever be able to see you. I wanted to be with you forever, but now you're gone. I love you. I'm gonna miss you." I heard Yoongi start to talk. "I just got you back Ara. A-Ara! W-Wae?! Wae did you leave me?! Wae did you leave us?!" 

Oof that ending was sadder than I intended. I almost cried myself while writing it. Oops! Well, that was this weeks chapter. (J)hope you liked it. I'm sorry it was so sad. I'm gonna leave before I make myself cry. So. BYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!