"Mistakes have the power to turn you in to something better than you were before." He told me. "I just don't think that I can get any better." He smiled at me. "You will, eventually. Trust me."
Kim Ara-Jae was always know as a sweet girl. Until one...
It's been a couple of weeks since I tried to commit, again. I told the boys about my depression and they offered to help me. I gladly accepted their help. Slowly but surely the boys are preparing me for going out into the world all by myself. They assured me that they won't leave me, that they just want me able to my own thing. They are teaching me how to get a job. I'm not gonna lie, I'm very nervous. Ever since the 'accident' people have only seen me as the crazy girl, not the girl who needs her she can't get. I take a deep breath. I looked at Jin. He was there with me. I'm supposed to be here getting a job but, all I've done so far is get coffee. I squeezed Jin's hand. He smiled at me and nodded at the owner. I stood up and walked over to him. "U-umm, I heard that you were hiring. May I apply?" He looked at me. "N-You know what? Sure. Come with me." I was so excited! I might be getting my first job! He asked how my mental health was, if I could make coffee and serve people. Then he asked me some other questions. "Alright Ara. It's official. You're hired!" I hugged him. "Thank you sir! You won't regret it!" He handed me an apron and told me that my first shift is tomorrow morning. I walked back out to Jin, only to see him surrounded by like 50 girls. "Oppa! Jin Oppa! I got the job!" Before Jin could reply one of the girls said, "EWWW!! It's the crazy creep! Run! before she kills us all!" Her and the other girls laughed. I looked down. I knew it. I knew that I was still the crazy girl. I guess I always will be. "Yahhhh!! That's rude!!!" Jin yelled at the girl. "But Oppa!! She IS the crazy creep!!" The girl protested. "It's alright Oppa. I'll see you around." I him standing there with the 50 girls. Before I left I heard, "WHO SAID YOU COULD CALL HIM OPPA!?!??!?!?! CR-!!" I left before she finished her sentence. I went to the beach near our house. Taehyung showed me this beach, he said it was on of the best places to look at the stars. I usually come here to clear my mind. "I'm so sorry Oppa. You must hate me. You must hate being near me, being around me. I must ruin your reputation. You must hate me so much. I bet you are actually just trying to get rid of me. I don't blame you though Oppa, I would do it to." I sighed. Maybe I should leave them? Let them be so that they won't be called crazy to. Maybe I should just DISAPPEAR. I have to save those I love from going through the same torture I went though. They taught me everything I needed to know, now it's time to put it to good use. I will stay with them until I have enough money to afford my own house, then I will disappear. I looked at the beautiful setting sun. "If only I was as beautiful as you." I said as I closed my eyes and laid back on the sand. I listened to the waves hit the sand. Before I knew it, it was dark outside. I looked up at the twinkling stars. "They always surprise me with their beauty." Someone spoke from beside me. "Just like you Noona." I turned and saw Taehyung. "Hi, Taetae!" I said. He sat down on the sand. "We were looking for you Noona. We thought that you left us." He looked down, sad. "I didn't leave you guys." Yet. I thought. "Noona please don't listen to those girls, they are stupid." I looked at him. "They're not stupid, they are right." I mumbled the last part. "No, they are. They think that they have a chance with us, with Jin hyung. The truth is, we don't like girls like them, AT ALL." He confessed. "We like girls like you Noona. S-." I cut him off. "So you guys like girls with to many problems to fix?" He glared at me. "No. We like girls who are sweet and understanding. Girls who undersatnd limits, boundaries, and personal space." I nodded. "I guess I'm like that but, nevermind. You won't want to hear it anyway." He looked at me with a soft gaze. "Ara Noona, I want to hear anything you have to say." I sighed. "Fine, I I guess I'm like that but, I'm not pretty. I'm ugly, I scare people, I am a mons-." Taehyung cut me off. "You never were a monster Ara Noona." I shook my head. "I would've killed Jin Oppa that one day if Yoongi Oppa didn't come and knock me to the ground." Taehyung shook his head. "Whatever, Noona, just know that I don't think that you are a monster, okay?" I nodded my head. He pulled me in for a hug. Once we pulled away, he said, "Come on Ara Noona. let's go home." I smiled and nodded at him. As we walked home I thought. I'm gonna miss you Taehyung.
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That's all for this week!! I'll be back next week or sooner with another chapter. Anyway!! BYEEEEEEE!!!!!!
