Inevitable || Krii7y

Chapter 1

5 months later

Jaren's p.o.v

I stepped through the gates of the graveyard, holding two bouquets in my arms. I walked slowly through the long rows of headstones, until I turned to walk between the graves.

"Hey Sawyer..." I said quietly, when I reached my former best friends grave. "It's been a while.."

I took one of the bouquet and placed it gently in front of the grey stone.

"A lot has happened this past year", I said quietly. "I thought I met the right one just to be wrong. Almost killed myself, moved far away." I faintly smiled and continued, "Had to go to court which still is stupid, also I ran into the person I was sayin I met he right one.. Nina wasn't the one at all." I trailed off.

I look at my hands, "I found a new best friend too," I said quietly "his name is John."

I took a deep breath. "Well when I started cutting again, he helped me take the pain away from wanting to. Because he told me all about his weak heart. He told me about his pacemaker, like the one my granddad had. I thought my life was shit and bad. Having a friend who would die any minute was much, much worse. He said he only had a few months to live, and yet I fell for him, after all this time..."

I sniffed and tried to smile, "it's hard, but I'll mange. At least I have someone now. John has showed me the light how to aim my life for an actual future."

John always said he wasn't gay. So I accepted that, I just wanted to have him by my side as long as I could.

I heard footsteps behind me, and I turned to look who it was.

"There you are! We better hurry up! Did you visit both of them yet?" John huffed and saw the other bouquet in my lap. He turned to look at the headstone." I'm so so sorry Sawyer, I can't stay and chat because we -" he turned to look at me, "-are in a hurry."

"Like it's my fault", I chuckled when John helped me up from the ground.

"I didn't find a parking space," he said grabbing my hand. "If you want to visit your grandpa's grave we have to go now, or your dad is gonna pissed "

"Yeah- sure", I said following him back to the main road of the graveyard. "It's this way," I continued and led the way.

Oh, sawyer? I forgot to tell you, John's heart is getting slowly stronger. Since he started taking care of himself and eating more healthier. We go for walks every night and sometimes we even go jogging. Last time we went to go see his doctor, he said that if John continued with this lifestyle, he shouldn't have major problems with his heart. I was - am so happy about that!

"It's here", I said and turned between another row of headstones, stopping to a halt in front of my granddads grave.

After putting the bouquet on my granddads grave and I said my hasty hello as I rushed back to John.

"Ready?" He asked and I nodded.

We ran back to the church and rushed in. There was loads of people inside, giving us nasty looks when we tried to find empty seats on the grooms side. My dad was getting married again, and I was surprised John was invited too.

My mom was also sitting in the crowd of people smiling. I think after I came home they started talking again, but clearly as best friends. They never had any grudges against each other.

I found two empty spots by my aunt, I looked at John, who was trying to fix his black dress coat. His hair was re-bleached and kind of all over the place, I lifted my hand and started moving hair for him.

"Thanks" John muttered with a smile.

I gave him a wide smile, before forcing myself to look away. He looked really good in his suit. I had always had troubles to keep my eyes away from him.

I turned to look at the alter. The bride was just about to step in, and I sighed. I wanted to be with john. But I told him I didn't like him anymore, because of his heart.

I tried to concentrate on the ceremony, but John sat so close to me I felt his body brushing against mine. His wonderful scent was driving my crazy, and whenever he leaned to whisper something into my ear, my whole body shivered with wanting.

How easily I could turned to face him and press my lips on his? Oh god, I was going crazy just thinking about kissing him.

After the ceremony I had no memory of it. Me and John waited for rest of the quest rush after the newlyweds, before walking after them. When I tried to move through the entrance hall and all the other guest, I got separated from John. He pushed himself after me, and grabbed my hand.

"You're so small and will get lost with everyone else here," He lowly chuckled.

"Sorry," I said quietly, flustered. John led me outside the church, never letting go of my hand.

"Are you ready to go?" John asked me while we walked down the stairs.

"Yeah," I said with a smile. "I'm starving."

"Me too," John said and we headed to his car.

I was getting healthier with John. I had grown quite the appetite over the months. My body has gotten use to food, and sometimes John jokes around that I was eating more than him.

My dad texted me saying that we were meeting up at a orchard because his wife always wanted to have family time.

When we arrived and a finally had eaten and the others started mingling around the orchard, John pulled me up from my seat with him, and led me deeper into the orchard to sit away from commotion. John didn't like crowded places, it made him nervous. Which then would cause his heartbeat to speed up.

"Beautiful wedding," I said, when we sat down on the edge of a big fountain.

John started laughing, "you sound like your aunt"

"I think it's beautiful" I frowned.

John put his arm around my shoulder and pulled me closer, ruffling my hair playfully. "You're too cute." He chuckled, and let go of me. Making me feel disappointed.

I put my hair back in order. It started getting dark outside already,and the lamps and the candles cast shadows of the thousands of flowers, making everything look so romantic.

I was kind of hurt because I wish I could do things like this with John, but after I told him I didn't like him anymore out of fear he'd leave. I knew that he'd forgotten about it.

"Hey, are you already?" John asked worriedly.

"I just miss my best friend," I said glad that my mind was still able to lie to him.

John seemed to accept my answer. He pulled me into a tight hug, and pressed his lips shortly against my forehead. "It's all thanks to you," He said quietly. "I was slowly killing myself, but you saved me from myself," He said quietly in my ear. "I'm forever grateful for what you have done for me."

"And I'm grateful for what you have for me aswell." I replied, wrapping my arms around his back,

We stayed like this for a while until John pulled away, giving me a warm smile. That smile I loved so much. "I think we should get going. We need to get up early tomorrow."

I sighed and got up to my feet, following him to my dad to say our farewells. It was John's check up tomorrow morning, and I started feeling extremely nervous again, like I always did when John went to get his heart checked.

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Well this chapter 1 of book 2 I hope you really like this.. because I feel like this book is going to be really good. I have a layout of how I want this story to go, and all I can say because I owe this for leaving it on the a cliff hanger.. chapter 2 is gonna be good :) anyways thank for al the support I can't express how grateful I am for each one of you who read my book. Tell me how you like the new chapter / book.

-Nickole