Alan Walker X Reader

Chapter 4: Darkside

Alan Walker's P.O.V

As I was finishing my post on my concert saying, "I can't wait for the concert tomorrow. I hope I can talk with a few of my fans. Thank you so much for your support. I hope I can talk to you guys in person. Thank you and have an amazing day!", I felt a deep sense of sadness swarming over me. It was because of my dear old friend Sophia Carson, but she wasn't just my friend, she was the love of my life. I loved her more than anyone else. I don't think I'll be able to love someone else again. 

I'll just keep smiling through all the pain as if nothing ever happened and till it goes away, hoping that none of my fans would notice it, which I'm pretty sure they haven't, but still . . . . . Sophia . . . . . . Why . . . " I mumbled to myself, remembering what had happened to her . . . . . (flashbacks). "No!!!" I said when all of a sudden the car burst into flames as Sophia died in the burning hellish flames of Lucifer, the devil. I cried and cried like how the rain falls down to pour. Paramedics arrived, but it was too late. My whole heart went to the darkside as the sudden feeling of hope, happiness, love, and affectionate went to the deepest core of my soul to burn . . . "Never shall my heart, soul, nor mind to be exposed to anyone or to anything ever again . . . . " I thought to myself. For me it's still hard to accept that she is gone. I want to see her again. I want her and me to be Happier. Right here, right now.

"I know it's not good for me, but I want to stay like this. This shows that I loved her more than I could ever love myself. Even though I've heard people say, "Live life to the fullest!", to which is true, but for Sophia . . . . . Why didn't she live longer?? Why God?? What could she have done to forbid her from living a happy life with me??!!! God damn it!!" I threw everything off of my couch and turned it over. "Man, why does Sophia have to leave me like this?!!!! God, why?!! DO YOU HATE ME?!!! Well, then, screw you!!!! I could care less if you were 'The God Almighty'!" Panting, I quit rampaging about losing the love of my life and went I straight to my bathroom to brush my teeth, drink some water, and went to straight to sleep.

I had a nightmare of losing Sophia, the day I lost her in the car crash, and of course I cried in my sleep. Although I knew Sophia was gone from my life, I could still feel apart of her consciousness was there with me. Trying to tell me everything was going to be okay . . . . That . . . . I was going to be okay. That I could find someone else to light up my heart little by little everyday . . . . but . . . . . who is it exactly?? And how will I know?

We're not in love
We share no stories
Just something in your eyes
Don't be afraid
The shadows know me
Let's leave the world behind

Take me through the night
Fall into the dark side
We don't need the light
We'll live on the dark side
I see it, let's feel it
While we're still young and fearless
Let go of the light
Fall into the dark side
Fall into the dark side
Give into the dark side
Let go of the light
Fall into the dark side

Beneath the sky
As black as diamonds
We're running out of time (time, time)
Don't wait for truth
To come and blind us
Let's just believe their lies

Believe it, I see it
I know that you can feel it
No secrets worth keeping
So fool me like I'm dreaming

Take me through the night
Fall into the dark side
We don't need the light
We'll live on the dark side
I see it, let's feel it
While we're still young and fearless
Let go of the light
Fall into the dark side
Fall into the dark side
Give into the dark side
Let go of the light
Fall into the dark side

Take me through the night
Fall into the dark side
We don't need the light
We'll live on the dark side
I see it, let's feel it
While we're still young and fearless
Let go of the light
Fall into the dark side

No one's P.O.V.

In Alan's nightmare, he claims that Sophia was protecting him. Also, telling him that someone out there is waiting for him to make him feel happy. Is this his future? His manifest destiny? Is he going to be fully ecstatic by his results or will be back out and miss his chance with you? Here are some questions for you and only you.

 There are only 3. So here they are.

 1. Do you love yourself? If you do, well, I'd say you're ready to embrace true love into your life. And if you don't, then how can you love someone else when you don't love yourself at all?

 2. Is he worthy enough for you and would you even consider him as a wonderful boyfriend?

3. Are you worthy enough to say that you are the love of Alan Walker's life?

Hey, guys! Just finished this dang long chapter, but I'm happy with it! Thank you for those of you who put this book as their reading list! Good night.