Silent Screams | ✓

no goodbyes

It is not common and usual
For me to find a lover
It is not also normal
For him to stay and hover

I think of him as a smoothie
But he thinks I’m an angel
Just because he calls me sweetie
Our world’s on different level

I am just ordinary, almost nothing
I cannot even love myself, why would he?
He, who is wonderful and charming
Makes me think that I am unworthy

I ignored and turned him down
I even kept my distance far away
I became selfish until I drown
Then it was too late, too late for him to stay

Now here she comes, her face a beaut
She catches his attention, it’s time for me to fall
I became silent, I became mute
For this is my ending, my greatest downfall

My world suddenly became murky
But their’s seemed okay and fine
If it were not for my idiocy
He would’ve still be all mine

I cannot handle this situation
Just watching them from afar
So I took the next train at the station
While they exchanged sweet words at the altar

As I watched the scenery from outside
It started to pour down, I let myself cry
I feel broken and dead on the inside
When I realised, I never bothered to say goodbye