I thought I knew pain
I was certain that the burning I felt was as bad as it gets
Hating myself hurt, of course
Heartbreak damaged me permanently
I could've sworn it took everything out of me
It raised me up to the highest cloud
And left me spiraling to the earth
And rest assured that I hit every bump on the way down
I was too bruised
Too bloody
Too scarred to ever love again
Although I was too broken to even get out of bed
I stayed hopeful
I remained soft
How fucking naive could I be?
I know what people are capable of
I've heard the bass in their voices as they told me they would never leave
I've watched their sparking eyes cry oceans into the fabric of my sweatshirt
I've felt their arms hold me so tight that I could've sworn my bones broke
And all of that was shot to hell
I was broken for so long
And as soon as I healed
I fucking shattered
I don't think I'll ever come back together
Heartbreak will ruin you, as it does
But hope will kill you
