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l love every part of you (prinxiety)

Hello guys so this is basically
Prinxiety p.o.v. of the last chapter.  Also warning  there is self harm in the chapter
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Virgle
I stared at my ceiling. Thoughts flooding into my mind.
What if they don't accept you? (Depression or voice in his head)
T-they do!
What if they're just acting?
They're not!
What if they hate you?
They don't!!
What if they do hate me.... what if im not good enough for them. Am I really worthless.
Maybe your right..
You know that I'm right.Now repeat after me.
You. Are. Worthless.
I am worthless.
I started to cry. I didn't want to believe the voices in my head. I couldn't help it. I felt numb. I hated feeling numb. I wanted to feel things. I lifted up my hoodie sleeve. There were scars on  my arm. I walked to my dresser and grabbed a blade. I knew I had to stop but I couldn't. I blamed myself for not being able to stop. I hated myself even more. I couldn't think of anything else. Before I did anything I blasted music on a speaker. I didn't want anybody to hear me cry. I sat back on my bed with a blade in hand. I sighed and put the blade against my skin.I hated feeling numb. This was the only way I could feel things.The first one I took my time. I felt the blood drip down my arm. With every cut I insulted myself. With every cut I told myself I was worthless. I Ignored the outside world the voice in my head louder than ever. That is until I heard the door knob turn.Crap I forgot to lock my door.
"Hey Virgle,have you seen my-
I looked up.
It was Roman.
V-virgle what are you doing?"
N- nothing!" I hid the blade.
It was too late. Roman saw the blood on the floor. He saw the blood on my arm. I drop the blade. I was expecting a laugh or an insult I wasn't expecting any support.Roman ran into the bathroom and got the first aid kit out. He took care of my arm and wrapped it in a bandaid. After he hugged me tight.
"Never do that again. Don't scare me like that virge",Roman whispered.
I hugged back. In Roman's arms I felt safe. I started crying. Roman just held me while I cried. After I was done crying I looked into his his. My eyes went to eyes lips. He looked at me like he understood and he kissed me. It was sweet. Roman was gentle. We broke the kiss for something called air.
"Roman I- i like you... a lot"
"I like you too Virgil"
"Just promise me this .. promise me you will never self harm again. Promise me you'll never scare me like that again."
"I promise"
"Good now .. will you be my boyfriend?"
I smiled. I nod. He smiles as well.
"Wanna watch Disney movies in my room my dark prince?"
I nod and he carries me to his room.
We just cuddled and watched Disney movies.
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