Tacenda - PJM

Chapter: 4

But, for you
Who is much softer than me
I'll try to act like an adult
I have no choice, that's what I think
Suran - Wine

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09.00 AM

The sudden flash of light woke her, as she forgot to close the curtains last night. Blinking, She tried to opened her eyes slowly and cause the sunlight blinded her. She turned her body and found Yoongi sleeping soundly beside her, hugging him self.

She remembered, she had the dreams last night. It the first dream after few 3 years. On the first night in Korea made her nightmare back.

She slowly put down her feet off the bed, didn't want to wake Yoongi. She closed the curtains and walked out the room, closed the door behind her. Yoongi needs more sleep.

She walked through the hallway, stretched her stiff body. She went inside the kitchen and found the coffee machine on the kitchen island. She opened all the kitchen drawer and cabinet to find the coffee bean. As soon she found it, she grinded and boil the coffee, because she knew Yoongi would need it.

She took out two mugs from the cabinet and pours the coffee. She slowly drinks her morning coffee, now she finally awakes. The smell of freshly brewed coffee brought her well-trained sense to life the following morning.

She lifted her head as soon she heard Yoongi footstep walked into the kitchen, dragging his feet, half sleep while stretching his body.

"Good morning" She said.

"Yeah, morning" Yoongi sit beside her on the breakfast table, she gives his coffee. He took a sip from his morning coffee.

"How you feel?" He asks as he put down his mug to the table.

"Feeling better?" I tried to smile at him.

He frowned as he found her lying. "Good then" He shrugged it off and took another sip of his coffee.

"When the last time you met Dr. Brown?" Yoongi spin around and prop her body with leaning his elbows on the table.

Dr. Richard Brown was her shrink for past 10 years. He helped her to straight out her trouble minds and the nightmare that haunted her for years. Dr. brown was the reason they moved to London. He was got recommended by her former shrink in Korea.

"I don't want to talk about it" She stood up but Yoongi managed to stop her by grabbed her elbow.

"Stop running away and answer me" She met his black eyes gaze soft to her, she sighed and back sit to the bar stool.

"I stopped the appointment 3 years ago, but I met him sometimes. Enough?"

His gaze never leave her hazel eyes, "What he said when you stopped coming to the appointment?"

She took her another sip of her coffee, feeling her throat dry for answering the questions she wanted to avoided the most, "He asks my mom first, but I convinced them that I stop dreaming the nightmare"

He frowned, He cornered me, his eyes judging, "I found sleeping pills together with Dr. Brown prescription drugs last night. It was a lot. Don't said to me, you keep drugging yourself to sleep?" He crossed his arms.

Her brows shot up, widened her eyes, disbelief, "No, fucking no. What would I?"

"I didn't take drugs to sleep," He squint her eyes and she broke the eyes contact, "God, I really meant it. I just keep make myself busy in the day and crashed as soon I'm home"