Roman And Emery Season 2

Guilt vs Hatred

I tried not to look down at her as I walked out. Of I looked at her, I would break, and I couldn't do that, I had to get her to safety. It took my entire willpower.

How could I have let this happen?

I'm supposed to be her protector. And look what happened.

I should have protected her better.

"Roman..." Her voice sounded so small as I sat her down in the van. Instead of responding, I just got in next to her and waited for the others. "Roman?"

"Sleep." Was all I said as the others got in and we finally took off.

I knew she didn't want to obey my orders, but I felt her head fall on my shoulders.

I wanted so badly to wrap my hands around her. To say it would be alright. To tend to her wounds. But I didn't.

I couldn't.

I hadn't realized I had been clenching my fist in effort to restrain until it had become painful. Even then, I didn't let go. It was all that was keeping me in check.

If only I had known she was still awake...

"Emery," I said pulling her off my shoulder, waking her up. Without saying anything, I got out of the car and picked her up.

"Where are we?" I heard her ask, her voice still just as weak. I didn't respond and instead felt her look around. "Hospital?" I could feel her gaze on me. To keep myself from looking down to meet her beautiful eyes, I walked faster.

"Hello, how can I help you?" A kind nurse asked as I walked into the emergency room.

"She has been tied up and tortured God knows how." I stated.

"Okay," she said as she grabbed a gurney while a doctor came running up.

As soon as I set her down, I let them do their thing. Despite my hardest efforts, I took a look at her. The cuts and bruises and blood. I couldn't do it, so I immediately looked away and let them take her away. As she went away, I turned around and started waking out.

"Roman!" Drake yelled. "Where are you going?"

"Look. I can't... I'm going to go see Gloria. You stay here with her." I said, trying to hold back the tears that have been threatening to run down my cheeks since the moment I found her.

"Roman... she's your girlfriend... And she's in the hospital..."

"Exactly," I said and walked away, ignoring the calls from my best friend.

Once I was out of the hospital and sure no one was around, I let them fall.

How could I have let this happen?!

My poor Em...

She's my everything...

Now she's in there because of me.

I failed to protect her...

*Few hours later*

The first thing I noticed as I can forth was the sound of beeping.

Where was I?

...

Right.

The hospital.

The kidnapping...

I slowly started to open my eyes to the bright room. It took a moment to adjust, but once I did, I noticed Drake sitting in the chair. But no Roman.

"Drake... where's Roman?" I asked, confused by the softness in which it came out.

"He's not here. He left after he dropped you off."

"Oh..." I said, remembering the looks, or lack there of, that he gave me since he picked me up. Of course he did.

"Hey, he's just talking to Gloria. I'm sure he just wants to make sure everything is taken care of before he visits."

"Yeah, you're probably right," I said, but I knew it wasn't. He wouldn't have avoided looking at me or talking to me or be so stiff when I leaned on him if it was  just that.

He hates me.

He thinks I'm weak.

Sorry it has been a while. I haven't had time to breathe lately, but since I'm on a sick day, I thought I would update. Sorry, again, to leave you guys hanging.