It's so fucking sudden. Out of nowhere. The urge. Suddenly you can't concentrate on anything and your mind keeps wandering and you know there's only one way to stop it.
You keep thinking about how easy it is and how good it feels. The afterthought doesn't even bother you. Yet.
Because right now disappointment and regret doesn't amount to the feeling of relief you'll get when you run that sharp blade across your skin.Nothing matters but that, and suddenly it hits you, you're addicted.
