One And Only~ Maylor [Wattys 2019]

Ch. 9: Delirium

Brian's P.O.V.

With everyday passing, my feelings for Rog were stronger and obvious.

It wasn't just a foul teenage crush, no. This wasn't the first time I was in love. My heart has fell for some women I've met, but this is the first ever time I fell in love with a man.

And that man was my best friend.

Best. Friend.

My confidant, advisor.

My voice, my beat.

Roger is perfect in many different ways. He is an amazing person, with such a great sense of humor. He knows how to interact with people, unlike me. Even though we have discussions, he still manages to solve things the right way. Attractive? God he is! Prettier than any girl I met.

I love him....

But could he love back?

No! Of course not! There is no way in heck he would. I'm his best friend, his brother. Why would he even love someone who isn't secure about himself? Has atempted so many times to end his life? Hurts the ones he loves with his bitchy and toxic character?

Why?...

Having these strong, bold feelings hurts so good. The love I feel is like a disease that is slowly eating my body and my mind, but strongly.

Like delirium.

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Tim's P.O.V.

Honestly, doubts are obfuscating my mind right now.

Doubts, just doubts. Will Smile last? How far would we get? Is there something going on between Bri and Rog? What is wrong with me?

Too many shitty doubts, which I could find multiple answers to, however, all those answers are just going to be impediments to my doubts and complicate them even more.

We've already been 2 years together and haven't gotten far. Our nights performing are just at college gigs. That isn't what we really planned. I started to be interested in this band named Humpy Bong. There are just a few members, but their music is sure great. They will get far, farther than Smile.

Unfortunately I just can't leave Smile just like that. There are shows that need to be done first. We still need to record some songs and sing in the Royal Albert Hall, that is a month away from now.

Just need to wait, that's all.

I feel like in a phase of delirium now.
All my thoughts are incoherent and scrambled.