Hey beautiful people, I dunno what this is but it's from a deleted chapter on a deleted book so enjoy lolz x
RYES POV.
It's painfully cold outside, it's also really early. I think jet lag is still inside of me, I'm not sure.
I reached over to grab my phone only to see the screen already on, a message from Andy-
My boii🌵-4:48am-
ryan I need u, I can't sleep. Come hold me tight.
My heart sank really quickly, I'm a disappointment. I wasn't ever there for him. I'm so dumb.
I check my phone once again reading the time.
5:02am.
I didn't realise that it wasn't that long ago Andy messaged me, maybe he's still awake.
I creep my does forward out of my bed and into the 'Mindy room'.
He's asleep, I'm happy about that. Woah he's so cute, especially when he's sleeping...
I sat beside him for a while, glaring at him for almost an hour. Considering it's really early I wasn't that tired, but I was still tired enough to drift into my dreams with my head touching Andy's on the pillow.
I woke up from my light sleep, slightly confused. Andy was on his phone and then he looked at me with his gorgeous eyes. "good morning sleepy head" He said smiling.
"Morning" I replied.
"Why were you sleeping on the floor?" Andy chuckled. I explained why and I'm pretty sure it made his day. "Come up here!" Andy said pulling my arm. I crawled into bed with him and his warmth instantly made me heat up. I have so many emotions right now. Butterflies in my stomach almost, oh no.
We sat there, in the silence. It wasn't awkward, it never is but I wanted to talk to him about last night. I honestly can't find the gut to.
"so, what was wrong last night" i said braking the silence. He hesitated "I um, i uh" he burst out in tears and sat up. I comforted, holding his hand. "you can trust me, you know that right?" I said concerned.
"Rye, Last night. After you came in I was still awake but soon fell asleep. I haven't slept in days." He said still weeping. I put my other hand under his chin lifting it up too look into my eyes. "Andy, everything is okay." I pulled him tight. "Every time I close my eyes I get flashbacks from my parents and I just get horrible n-nightmare. I'm so stupid" Andy said.
"Andy you're not stupid, you're perfect. Now listen, I'm here. I'm here always, here at 3 in the morning if you need me. I am sorry for last night. Make sure you come to me" I said almost tearing up. He put his head on my shoulder and slowly kissed my neck to say 'thank you'. This isn't anything new, but I sure to love it.
3 HOURS LATER.
We all got up, got dressed and had a shower.
"I'm hungry, let's go somewhere" Brook shouted. "NANDOS" Andy shouted looking actually exited. We made our way out and I drove us there.
Andy sitting the passenger seat beside me I knew he still wasn't right.
We got there quicker than usual, we sat in the usual places, me next to Andy.
"so, exited for next week?" Jack asked. Next week was our two weeks off for summer, a little unusual but Jack hadn't seen his family in many months. It was only fair for a little brake.
I slowly put my hand on Andy's thigh, "yeah, It'll be nice to see the family again, although I'll miss you guys" I replied squeezing Andy's knee.
We spoke and ate our food. "Let's go shopping" Jack said, everyone agreed but Andy.
"I-I'm gonna go home, I'll get a Uber or something" Andy said quietly.
"Everything Okay And?" Practically everyone asked him. "I'll come with you, let me know when you guys need picking up." I said.
"We'll get a Uber, don't worry." Mikey said.
"Okay" Andy and I walked off.
BACK AT THE FLAT. ANDYS POV.
I didn't want Rye to come with me, my cuts were bleeding from the other night. Self harm does no justice. Maybe I'll be able to tell him, we didn't talk much for the first couple of minutes but the i soon broke the silence. "I need to tell you something" I said holding my arm above my sleeve. I could instantly see Ryes concern on his face. I lifted my sleeve up before he could even say a word or ask any questions. He looked at me and then my arm, tears streaming from both of our faces. I'm so confused, why is he crying? Why does he care?
Rye ran over to me and picked me up sitting down, my arms wrapped around his waist and out faces tucked into each other's necks. "Andy, baby" I gasped at 'baby'. "Ple-ease dont ever do that again" rye said wiping his tears from his gorgeous face. He placed his forehead on mine and looked into my eyes. "Promise me." He added. I started into his sore looking eyes and said. "Only if you promise you'll stay with me." I smiled. "Andy I'll do anything to stay with you" he said very sure.
"Then, i promise." I said. Butterflies appeared.
He closed his eyes and leaned in, i was so confused. Before I knew it his lips were sealed on mine, Ryan Beaumont's lips were on mine. I obviously kissed back and the kiss deepened very quickly. He pulled away. "Oh and Andy, I'm gay" he laughed.
"I gathered handsome" I said smirking.
He kissed my lips once more before getting up and making me a tea. We soon cuddled up in Ryes bed watching a film. My head on his chest I could feel his breathing deepening. He didn't want to sleep until he knew I was sleep. His hands stoked through my blond hair and my arms weakened around him. Slowly drifting off to sleep the last words I heard were. "I love you"....
