Going to portharcourt thinking everything will be fine but as I get there all was fine but I really don't know how everything started maybe my stubbornness caused it or the thing that was wrong with me or I really don't no. But if I try to make them see the good in me its just come our wrong, if I try to make them see how good I am in cooking or anything its just come out bad one thing I really don't like is been compelled to someone I really hate it others might think that compelling me with someone I will change but they really don't no that compelling me makes me feel low in esteem. That's is one of the problem I face in my uncle house in Portharcourt. My uncle and is wife love me but I am a type of person if you keep on shouting at me for every little thing I did or I just come into your house for the first time I will always try to do well or I will not be myself. But me been almost given up on all things want someone that will love and take care of .e love me no matter what I did or how I do wrong. But I never l lost hope in there in school I always want to have friends that I will be able to tell what is going with me but at first I never did but later I did. I love my uncle wife more then my uncle but compelling me with someone was what brought my esteem down I couldn't do anything well again because I said to myself " why doing well when all they do is compelling me with someone if they so like that person they should bring her home." All those things was what I was thinking how which is only one person I would have try to do well but with small children also and someone I don't even no the person who always compelled me with her children I thank God that she and my uncle and aunty are not friends with her I don't even like her compelling me with her children. Yes at first I don't no how to speak English ( good /correct English). But I did try to even if it was hard. So many things happen even if I can't remember them all. Yea I remember one time I did fight with that woman son I really don't no it started but because I trip and fall my back touch the grouped that's how they say he beat me. Come on people it does not matter about all that but if you did cry. Many things did really happen I can't remember all of it. So many things a time when I was washing my clothes that day I really was washing maybe because I didn't wash it well that's why. Me as a person really don't like washing clothes and plate,but I still try in others own but my not really and I f I had told her am sure she would have tell me not to be like that but me I never like opening up I always look at them as if they all don't want me so what's the need of telling them what am going through or what happen to me. A time I did tell them what do happen how I fell and all that but I was feeling that they were sacred of me that's why I did not want to tell.
