endearment (Jesse Lingard & Marcus Rashford)

The sequel | part 2

Delilah pov
After my whole sobbing session I've decided I'm going to try my best not to let him affect me enjoying My best friends are getting married.
But I'm just not feeling the love.
I thought I was fine in Paris but coming here, it's all raw, like it happened yesterday.
I decide to take my mind off it to go explore the hotel.
It's so luxurious here!

I sit on the marble stairs out the back of the hotel.
I rest my elbows on my knees and place my chin on my hands.
I stare out into the view and just get lost in my thoughts. I'm soon snapped out of them by Marcus sitting next to me.
"You okay?" He asks softly.
I nod trying not to cry.
I feel my eyelids battle the tears.
"I know you Lils. You can't fool me" he says lightly laughing.
I can't help but crack a smile. Why did I think I could fool my best friend.
"It's just-" I say
I struggle to finish as I feel my voice quiver and I start bouncing my leg through nerves and take a deep breath.
"I'm listening" he says leaning forward with his hands cupped in the middle of his lap.
"I just saw Jesse. His room is opposite mine" I say shaking. The odd tear escaping.
"Might seem stupid but why do you still hate him?" He asks placing an arm around me.
"I don't hate him. I never have done" I admit resting my head on his shoulder.
"What? He thinks you hate his guts. Why is it upsetting you so much?" He asks rubbing my arm.
"Because- because- because I still love him Marcus. Always have and always will" I say now crying into his chest as he pulls me closer.
"I'm sorry" I say wiping my tears away.
"What for?" He asks
"Crying. Making this an issue when it's your wedding" I say sniffling.
"Lils. You're my best friend. I can't have something bothering you on my wedding day, especially when it involves the two main people." He says.
"Main?" I ask.
"Yeah you're the chief bridesmaid" he says.
"Yeah I know that" I say
"And Jesse is the best man" he says gently.
"How will I cope Marcus? I don't know how to. I ran away to Paris because I loved him too much. How will I cope in rehearsals? He hates me Marcus. He hates me" I say through the tears.
"How could he ever hate you" he says moving some hairs out of my face.
"Because he thinks I cheated on him with Luke. He thinks our whole 8 years of friendship was me chasing clout. He thinks I was playing a game. He didn't even care I was leaving the country Marcus. He didn't even try stop me, that's what hurt me the most" I say crying even harder.
"He wasn't willing to fight for me" I say
"Oh Lils. That's where you're wrong" he says.
"What?" I ask sitting up to look at him confused.
"I think that's up to him to explain. It's not really my position to say" he says.
He stands up and walks inside.
I'm left on the steps outside.
I pull my sleeves on my hoodie down to dry my tears.
I try to control my breathing as I stand up from the steps.
Still wiping my tears I turn around.
There's Jake.
He looks at me and shakes his head.
"What?" I ask still crying.
"So you're playing a game with me as well?" He asks
"What? What's going on?" I ask confused
"So you were just leading me on. I thought we had something but I heard what you just said. I was obviously a pawn in your twisted game of chess." He says sounding angry and annoyed.
He turns to storm inside the hotel.
"No jake! Jake wait. you know I already have a boyfriend" I shout chasing him inside.
"It's fine I get it." He says running up the stairs.
"I've always just said you're my best friend. I don't know how I would've made you think otherwise and I'm sorry you did" I say standing at the bottom of the stairs.
"It's okay. I felt out of place here anyway" he says storming upstairs.
I follow him up the stairs.
"Jake!" I shout continuously.

He walks out of his room with his bags.
"Jake!" I exclaim as I look down at his bags all packed.
I don't even notice at first but Jesse is stood outside his door at the end of the hallway watching.
"Goodbye. Hope it all works out for you" Jake says patting me on the shoulder.
"Oh so you're gonna be like that are you? You're gonna be a dick?" I shout to him as he walks down the stairs.
Jake walks out of the hotel.
"Unbelievable" I say under my breathe.
I turn to go to my room and I jump as Jesse scares me.
He walks past me not saying a word and heads down the stairs.
Why does he hate me? I mean I get it but come on.

I'm having to meet Lucia and Marcus right now to discuss head bridesmaid plans.
We're in the dining area at a round table.
I am talking with Lucia about dresses when I see the doors creek open.
It's Jesse.
Oh no he must've been invited to this as best man.
He comes and sits down and I stand up to leave. Marcus grabs my wrist.
"No please, stay" he asks.
It is his wedding and I don't want to be a brat so I guess I'll have to suck it up.
Jesse looks at me blankly when I sit back down.
I can't even look at him. I can feel his eyes on me.
I feel so weak when I'm around him for some reason. I really thought in Paris I was over this shit but I guess I was just temporarily away from it. Never over it. I just escaped it and it's just hitting me now it seems. Don't know if it ever hit Jesse. He says I was the one playing a game, he's the one that actually didn't love me otherwise he would've fought for me.
Marcus and Lucia are talking as I'm thinking all of this but they just sound like white noise as I'm thinking. I really need Adam right now. My thoughts bring a tear to my eye. I close my eyes hoping to hold back the tears.
Jesse's eyes still very much on me.
I accidentally let a tear slip out.
I quickly wipe it away hoping no one noticed.
Jesse probably did as he's intently watching me
I open my eyes and he gives me a sympathetic smile.
I feel tingles down my spine as he smiles.
The door creeks again.
It's a tall dark haired female.
The whole room falls silent.
She wanders over to Jesse and places her hands on his shoulders.
She pushes her hands all the way down his body until she reaches his crotch.
She starts to kiss his neck.
Marcus looks at me sympathetically.
I quickly stand up and casually walk out the back of the room.
I don't really care if it's obvious it was bothering me.
"Lils! Don't be like that" Jesse's shouts to me as I near the door.
I flash him the middle finger then disappear out of the door. I'm past caring if I'm being childish now.

Jesse pov
After Lils walks out I push Natalie off me.
"What you doing that for babe?" She asks trying to be sexy.
"Because I don't want you doing that" I yell
Natalie storms out.
I sigh and place my head down on the table
"You need to get whatever this is sorted by the wedding. We want you all to enjoy it" Lucia says placing a hand on my arm.
"How will I sort it if she hates me?" I groan
"Bro you two really need to talk. You've both got it all wrong" Marcus says laughing.
I raise my head off the table
"She can't even be in the same room as me she hates me that much!" I exclaim.
"Trust me bro" Marcus says smirking.
I look at him confused.
I look at Lucia as if to ask if I can go.
"We will hold this meeting tomorrow instead" she sighs in defeat.
"Great" I smile and stand up.
"Please do actually talk to her. Like properly, she told me some things earlier I think you would like to hear" Marcus says as I approach the door to leave.
I smile at him as I open the door
"Thanks beans" I say before I walk out.
Now I just need to find her.

I spot her in the hotel lounge area. No one else is in it. Just her alone on a couch. I slowly walk over to her.
About two foot away she realises it's me and tries to leave.
I grab her arm to stop her.
"Please hear me out" I ask as she stares at me blankly.
I'm surprised when she actually sits back down. I sit beside her.
Man here goes....
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