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8

I woke up in a daze like state. It felt like I was out for what felt like forever. "Wha-?" I say while sitting up, rubbing at my eyes. Everyone was still down here and Brendon was kneeling beside me. "You were only out for 10 minutes." He says and I kid you not he genuinely looked concerned. "What, what happened?" I ask and Patrick coughed. "You could be dehydrated considering you've cried a lot, lost a bit of blood and haven't had much liquids in 4 days." He says and my eyes pop.

"Four days?!" I ask, genuinely surprised. I thought it was only two days. Huh. "You slept through most of it. You slept a whole day when we first brought you." Brendon says. Holy fuck. That means people are looking for me, most definitely. Dallon hands me a glass of water and I thank him before downing it. God my head fucking hurt. "Are you hungry?" Brendon asks and I shake my head. Maybe I can die of starvation. I was agitated and annoyed to be honest. My head hurt, my body hurt and I wanted to go home. I hear a scream and groan, putting my head in my hands.

"Let me fucking go!" I hear Ashley screech again. It's hard to hear through that door so the fact that we can hear her makes it clear on the level of loud obnoxiousness she's pulling. "God I wish she'd fuck off." I say gripping my hair. "Perfect opportunity c'mon." I hear Brendon say and suddenly I'm picked up. "What, what no put me down." I say and he laughs. "No, I'm not hurting you." He says and opens the door. "Shut up.." I mumble as the screeching gets louder. "Talking to me?" Brendon ask defensively and I shake my head.

"Good." He mumbles and continues to walk downstairs. He puts me down, and places a hand on my shoulder, probably to ensure I don't fall. "Shut the fuck up!" He hollers and I wince. My head hurts so goddamn bad. "Here," Brendon says and reaches into his waistband and pulls out a pistol. My heart started racing and he hands it to me. I stare at it, kinda dumbfounded. I've never shot a gun before. I look at it and than back at Brendon. "Here." He says and places my hand where it needs to be. "Now aim and pull the trigger." He says and Ashley shakes her head, starting to cry. "I'll be quiet I swear, please dont I'm so sorry of everything." She says and I lick my lips.

"Sleep tight." I say and she shakes her head. I can't believe I'm gonna do this. I need to get out though. I need to get free. I need them to trust me. I feel like I have no choice. "Pl-" I pulled the trigger. A loud boom echoes the room and I kept my eyes closed, my ears ringing. I didn't wanna see what I just did. I felt sick. I don't think at this moment I realized what I had just did. I was kinda in shock. "Good job, you did good." Brendon says and pats my shoulder. I still didn't open my eyes. I turned to face away and then proceeded to open my eyes. I feel his hand drop from my shoulder and I look at Brendon and smile softly so he doesn't begin to think I regret this. Even though I did.

I notice blood splatters all across the shirt he was wearing and my stomach lurched. I was afraid to look down at myself. I felt the blood hit me. I knew I was doused in it. "I know, I know. The first times always hard. I'm proud of you okay? You can go upstairs." He says taking the gun from me and I simply nodded and did so. Immediately all eyes were on me when I stepped through the door. "Holy fuck she actually did it." Gerard says. I was shaking. My ears were still ringing and my stomach twisted into awful knots. "You can take a shower if you need, you got blood.. yeah." Pete says and I chuckle and nod.

"I'm going to hell." I mumble as I walk up the stairs. I slowly step into the bathroom, and close the door. It didn't have a lock so I had hoped all of them were decent enough to not walk in on me. I felt kinda numb right now. It hasn't set in completely on what I did. I slowly walk into view of the mirror and oh my fucking god. Blood was splattered all over my face. All over my clothes. I gag and turn and throw up in the toilet. It was only water that came up though. Once I was done I took off my clothes and hurriedly turned the water on, and got in.