𝐌𝐘 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐑 𝐌𝐄𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐘 | 𝐖𝐈𝐅𝐈𝐒𝐅𝐔𝐍𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐋 + ʲᵃʸ ᶜʳⁱᵗᶜʰ

ELEVEN.

𝐥𝐨𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐥𝐞𝐬, 𝐜𝐚.
𝟐𝐚𝐦

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

ariana safely arrived to her los angeles apartment for 2chainz wedding this weekend, meanwhile isaiah stayed back in miami to finish the last touches on ethernet
despite the two leaving on good terms, ariana was still sad inside as her anxiety was on a rise lately, but she ignored it at least for now. but before she could even get ready to go to bed, her phone blew up from messages from adam.

NEW MESSAGES FROM ADAM 22 🎙

[ this is a screenshot off celina's instagram ]

CELINAPOWELLXO. 'siah sure knows how to keep a girl comfy 👀
👤 WIFISFUNERAL
[ COMMENTS ARE TURNED OFF FOR THIS POST ]

— ariana, i know you're either barely landing in la or you're already asleep but have you peep'd this shit ?
you know damn well she most likely bought the merch online. just wanted to let you know, ignore her!

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why would she be worried about a female who goes around in hollywood? a woman who has faked having multiple rappers babies? a woman who couldn't compare to the ariana that isaiah only loved. she was confused on why some females stoop so low to create a reaction of insecurity. she sighed as she also realized that it wasn't any real merch, considering isaiah has always made the the skull logo small. but it hurt as she was the only one who's ever called him 'siah and only in person never online.

she couldn't help but wonder, why she wasn't reacting so over protective, as isaiah always did. she really need to call isaiah, so she did despite being 2 in LA and 5 in miami, still he answered.

" ariana , amor , what's wrong? it's early. " he had an instinct something was wrong even though he never saw the post

" i know it's late and i don't know why i called but." she started to cry

" ari— ariana please tell me what's on your mind. "

this isn't the first time he's gotten a call like this,
back to thehigh school days and start of her career, she heavily experienced anxiety attacks, and with all the hurt, isaiah and ariana been through it all together. so she takes a deep breath.

" i haven't been feeling okay, maybe i don't know if the feeling would be here or not if i was with you in this moment or so. because maybe when i'm with you i don't feel a damn thing besides being love and in the comfort of you arms. and i love it i do but this unbearable feeling of sadness and blue taking over me hasn't been inside of me since the thought of loosing you. but that's it. you make me happy but i love you too much that i can't help to find to love myself that i'm putting this relationship in front of it all, i haven't in written in weeks. i'm not calling you a distraction because you're not one but why can't i feel anything else when i'm with you probably isn't okay. "

" ariana. it's okay, i love you enough to let you go because it's for your good. i cant hold you back from anything new, because we're good together but we have to end it before it becomes toxic and despairs to an endless cycle of boringness. i'm just trying to say i'm here for you, you need to put yourself first. that's all i care about you, you having genuine happiness. and i know it doesn't need to come from a man. so i understand. i understand. i know we've gotten through so many good and bad together, that we've always come back but hell that part isn't what i'm hoping for right now. i'm hoping for that sudden hit of low to go away but i know that's going to take time and i'll be waiting till you can share something new with me after. or so, you know how i feel about you. "

" i love you too and i always will. i really appreciate you understanding when this makes no sense. i really am sorry though, especially for this late night call. "

" it's all good, you know we always had a bad sleeping schedule. "

she laughed, " we did. "

" we never got that good bye kiss like in the movies. "

" this isn't good bye. "

" for right now it is.
the next time i see you, is it alright if i kiss you. "

" time will tell. "

" everything happens for a reason. "

" i love you. " the two spoke out at the same time, and hung up after

she sighs as now she lost what was her main happiness
and hell she wonders if she lost him a while ago and they were only on borrowed time but she could only remember how she felt sad when he went to yazmine and the voicemail she left him. she couldn't leave one now, but she actually described her feelings

" i don't know why the fuck you do the things that you do to me. why the fuck you sit here, knowing you're gonna be someone but still tend to treat the person that loves you like shit. how the fuck does that add up? yeah, you're from west palm beach, yeah, yeah, yeah, but why the fuck you acting all shady for? foo, i love you. and you're gonna sit here and you're gonna act like you don't give a fuck about me? these groupies don't give a fuck about you. what girl gonna try to have the love that I've given you? i've loved you forever. i believed in you, i trusted you, and what the fuck do you to me? where the fuck are you now, now that i need you? where were you when i called you? after all the shit that you've done to me, i don't know why the fuck i want you here. i loved you, through everything, every addiction, every pain, every hurt. fuck you. "

this was the voicemail she left months ago
and hell she would've said it again if she was hurt about cecilia but she wasn't and it made her wonder.

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𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞.

wattpad removed the photo i had of celina wearing a wifisfuneral shirt & of course i can't find it anymore.
so sorry about that but pretend it's there i guess.