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After nung muntik na hiwalayan namin ni Gio Kanina.
We ended up in dorm.
And the gang seeing me with red puffy eyes.
Bell and Cassy quickly pull me away from Gio.
They were glaring at him, even without hearing what actually happen.
But when they heared it. I ended up in the middle. While they’re infront of me. Waiting me to spill the tea…
“Well… Jay, Mino and Sohee are childhood bestfriend… nagkakilala sila nung elementary daw… Nalayo si Jay when they move to Canada…
Saka ko sila Mino at Sohee nakilala nung orientation ng school…
I was once living in orphanage “ I heared them gasp.
“I wasn’t an orphan don’t worry. It just because of circumtances kaya dun ako tumira.”Pagpapaliwanag ko dito.
“But Mino was an orphan there… Nakilala nya kagad ako, pero ako hindi… he make a deal with Jay about me. Hindi para saktan ako. Kundi para makuha ang atensyon ko. He wanted me to know him… gusto nyang makilala ko sya….
He never wanted to shows that video to anyone… pero nung one time na nagkukwentuhan kaming dalawa papuntang school. He confess about it and says sorry…
Hindi ako nagalit, but rather use it as an opportunity to escape my life…
There are reason’s kung bakit hindi ako makahing sa pamilyang yun…”
I look at them.
“Because… I was never part of it to begin with” I told them and their eyes widen.
[FLASBACK: Jay and Lorraine conversation]
Nakaupo lang kami sa table. All this time this is the moment na iniiwasan ko. But if I wanted to fix this, and to keep people who meant everything to me, i need to tell him he truth.
“I can’t believe you could do this to me!”
“I’m sorry Jay”
“You’re sorry? Lorraine naiintindihan mo ba kung bat ako nagagalit? Lorraine you hate to be manipulated but you f*Cking do it to me! I know I’m a jerk pero bat mo ko ginagag*? All this time galit na galit ako sa sarili ko kase sinaktan ko yung taong mahal ko! All this time I felt worst kase feeling ko ang tanga tanga ko! Lorraine mahal na mahal kita na kahit kahihiyan kaya kong tiisin pero Tang*na naman, dapat dineretcha mo nalang ako na ayaw mo na sa relasyon na to. hindi yung gagawa ka pa ng eksena para kamuhian ko ang sarili ko!” Sigaw nito sakin. I cover my mouth seeing him crying infront of me. Dahilan para mapaiyak din ako. “ Alam mo ba kung gaano ko kagalit sa sarili ko? Lorraine hindi lang babae ang nakakaramdam ng insecurities and depression. Hindi lang babae ang nasasaktan at nagiging tanga! Kami rin! Anong ginawa ko lorraine para paglaruan mo yung buhay ko? Anong ginawa kong masama sayo para gantuhin mo ko?!” Sigaw nya sakin.
Wala akong masabe dahil alam kong kasalanan ko. Na alam kong mali ako…
“I-I’m sorry Jay, I’m really sorry” I told him as I held his arm pero iniwas nya to.
“Siguro nga karma to sa lahat ng kalokohang ginawa ko sa buhay ko, pero alam mo You hated your father for doing this to you? Well Lorraine, I don’t want to be harsh pero manang mana ka sa tatay mo” He said and it maybe painful but he is right.
He look so hopeless and broken and I did those to this amazing person before me.
Hindi naman sya nagkulang, I know he change. he is so amazing that I doubt my self if I deserve him. he deserve better, someone like the sohee, who loves him very much, that is willing to give up him, for his own happines.
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Loving her Broken Parts (COMPLETED)
RomanceI woke up because of someone's sobs. Nothing but pitch black can be seen around. I roam my eyes,trying to look kung kanino galing yung iyak nayun Then the sobs became louder. I stand and run to nowhere in particular, but I felt something bump on me...
