I've felt like this many times,
And each time it's not much better.
It hits the hardest both when the sun is brightest and in the height of the moon.
The pressure behind my eyes builds, and with it, the pressure to give in.
Sadness is all-consuming, but so are our other emotions.
Nothing in life is easy. That's something we all know.
What we don't know is that we prefer it that way.
When things get too hard the feelings are all we can focus on, even the lack of them is eating at our thoughts.
You leaving is going to be the hardest thing I've been through, and I've been through a lot.
We all have.
But the pain is too much to live with, and giving up is the easy way out.
I prefer it that way.
I'm giving us up.
He gave her and me up, and so are you.
They're one and the same, and so are we.
In this at least.
I've loved you, and now it's time for me to remember you as something good.
Something untainted.
Something that doesn't pain me.
It's time you gave up too. You might not realize it, but you already have.
You've given me up for him, and I don't understand.
I won't lie to you, I never will.
I can't sit here and lie and do exactly what you're doing.
It's too easy.
So I'm saying goodbye,
Before either of us wish to not know the other completely.
