Sadist • Jared Leto

~chapter eleven~

Milah's POV

I didn't think a dinner could ever be as physically painful as it is right now. I'm finding myself craving his touch more than I ever thought I would, and every little brush of contact is sending violent shivers down my spine. My whole body feels hot to the touch, and I feel like I'm going to explode if something doesn't happen. I've never felt like this before, and I wasn't sure what to do about it. 

Jared and I were sitting at a restaurant table, eating the dinner in silence. Although it wasn't an awkward silence, it was somehow the loudest silence I've ever had to go through. My appetite has long gone, and it's been replaced with something a lot more intense.  

I looked down at the plate in front of me, taking a bite of the delicious lasagna. It was cheesy, hot, and meaty. Keep your attention on the lasagna, Milah. I glanced up at Jared, who was already looking straight at me. I quickly looked back down at my food, taking another bite as a shiver went down my back. 

Damn it.

"Have you considered signing the contract?" Jared spoke, making me choke on my food slightly, surprised at the abruptness. 

I took a sip of my water, before looking back up at him. "Um, I haven't exactly thought about it yet." He nodded, taking a sip of his wine. "Can you, uh, update me on what exactly the contract entails?"

A small smile set on hit face as he nodded, setting his glass down. "If you sign it, you're going to move back to my place in LA. You'll be my fake girlfriend, and in return you'll get a studio for your music, and I'll have you start modelling as well. It's a win-win situation, darling."

"What about my age, won't they catch on that I'm sixteen?" I asked, noticing the slight change of emotion in Jared's eyes. 

"Not if we're smart. We'll stay on the down low till you're eighteen, then we can be more open. I guess, actually 'reveal' our relationship. Oh, and the contract is a non disclosure contract, so once you sign it, you can only discuss this with me. Not with your parents, not with your friends. Just me." 

I bit my lip, looking down. "And... is there going to be any relationship between us, in the real world?" I asked, not looking up. 

"That is only if you want it. Like I said, that side of everything is intense. It'll be new for you, unless of course you've had some sort of previous relationship like this?" He asked, making me let out a small chuckle. 

"The only relationship I've ever had were fake ones with fictional characters." 

Jared's eyes widened, his eyebrows furrowing. "But you've had sex with someone before, right?" 

I awkwardly coughed, stuffing my mouth with lasagna. 

"Milah, answer my question." 

I swallowed what was in my mouth, before letting out a sigh. "Um, n-no. I've never done anything with anyone. I've never even kissed anyone before today." I awkwardly admitted, hated how stupid that made me sound. He's going to hate you now, Milah. Good going.