Torture

Lifetime Athletics

I have had the worst night. I woke up in the middle of the night to the sound of my parents doing it in the bedroom next to me. When they finished, I couldn't fall back to sleep. On top of all that I had a headache. Talk about terrible. Hopefully, today will be better. 

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I couldn't fall asleep. I spent all night thinking and hoping that Spencer would be at James' birthday party. I only would be able to see her for a minute because we have to drop the kids off but still, maybe her brothers would have been invited. I turned over again and see my dick of a husband next to me and start to cry. I need to divorce him already. 

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It's morning. The sun is glowing through the curtains and I have officially woken up. My little brothers are up. I can hear them talking in the room next to me. I go to the bathroom and then get back in bed and play a game on my phone. My brothers go downstairs and so does my mom. I sigh and start thinking about what we are going to have for breakfast. If I don't go now I would have to make breakfast myself.  

So I go down. Taking one step at a time. I feel sick. I make it to the bottom and my little brother says hi to me loud enough for my mom to notice and come and say hi. She pulled out cereal boxes and milk. I have a bowl of Cheerios and go back upstairs. My mom calls up to me and says we have a birthday party to go to at 3. I ask whos party and to that I get James. I smile thinking this could be fun. 

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The sun starts to peek through my window. Its morning and I haven't sleep one bit. I turn over again but this time my husband is awake. I give him a dirty look and get up and go to the bathroom. I close the door and turn on the shower. I sit down on the floor and cry. I am so lonely. I turn on my phone and see a few text messages. I wish one of them was Spencer. 

I get off the floor and into the shower. I turn on my playlist of songs that remind me of young love. 

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It's 1 o'clock so I get in the shower to start getting ready for James' party. I turn on my music and sing all the songs out of key.  I get out and start drying my hair. I do everything else like get dressed and finally, I am ready. I luckily didn't have to dress up because his party is at Lifetime Fitness. I put on my socks and shoes and go downstairs. I get yelled at for wearing my shoes on the stairs but I brush it off and get a bottle of water. My mom tells me and my brothers its time to go. 

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I get out of the shower and my husband is still in bed. 

"Where are the kids?"

"I don't know."

"Well did they go downstairs?"

"I think so."

I sigh and get my clothes. I walk downstairs and they are fighting over the T.V. remote. 

"What did I say about fighting over T.V.?"

"That we won't get to watch T.V. for the whole day." Alyssa sighs.

"Sorry, mom," Jaxson says as he runs over and gives me a hug. 

"It's ok baby."

I walk away to the bathroom and get dressed. I come out and they are happily watching Minions. Oh well, at least they are quiet. I walk to the kitchen and start making pancakes. My husband walks down the steps talking on the phone to his assistant. I roll my eyes and he walks into the garage. I look at the clock and its 11. 

I finish breakfast and the kids and I eat. Who knows where my husband is. We finish and it is 12:30. I tell them they can watch their show for 30 minutes while I do laundry. They just nod their heads. 

The 30 minutes go by and I tell them they need to get ready. They get mad so I turn off the T.V. 

"You guys shouldn't have been watching anyway."

"UGH!" They both scream. 

I turn to walk away and Jaxson runs past me up the stairs to get ready. Good boy I say. Alyssa comes up behind me and asks what she should wear. I tell her to dress as if she was going to the park. She's the only one going to the party. Jaxson, Joey and I need to spend more time together. An hour goes by and they both are dressed with teeth brushed. I finish doing Alyssa's hair and its time for us to go. My husband starts the car and we are off. 

We arrive at Lifetime a little early. I go inside with Alyssa hoping to see Spencer. We walk over to where James' mom Maria was and look around. She isn't here. I remember we are early and get excited again. Maria walks over with a wrist band and permission slip. I sign the papers and put Alyssa's bracelet on. Alyssa then walks over to James' sister Jordan. It looks like there are more kids here for Jordan than James'. Oh well. 

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We arrive at Lifetime Fitness and I turn my head to see Nicole's husband and Jaxson in the car next to us. I sigh. Nicole isn't in the car. We get out of the car and begin to walk in. The guy behind the desk asks what we are here for and my mom replied birthday party. He points behind him and says that table. My mom says thank you and we walk over there. That's when I see her. Standing there. My heart stops. She turns and looks at me and smiles. 

She's wearing my favorite outfit of hers. Black long sleeved turtle neck shirt,  green cargo pants and her white and burgundy striped Adidas. She looks cute. 

My little brother Rilee walks over to where the girls are playing and Jaxson walks to James and his friends. Her daughter Alyssa is adjacent to us playing with James sister. Maria walks over to hand me and my little brothers a wristband and my mom a permission slip. My mom signs it as I struggle to put on the wristband. I look at Nicole and as she is about to help me Maria walks over and just puts it on my wrist. I whisper thank you to Nicole and she turns 2 shades of red. 

I love that I can do that to her. Anyway, I say thank you to Maria and then the host tells us its time to start our first activity. This means the parents have to leave (If they want to). I know Nicole is leaving because I overheard her saying that Jaxson wants to spend more time with her and Joey. As long as she comes back for pick up...

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This is where everything begins. Most of the feelings develop from this point on. Part 2 will be added tomorrow. 

Thanks for reading!!