Are you ok? (an adopted by hamilton)

Part 7

All I can hear is the beating of my heart. I have no idea what has happened to me. All I know is my heart is ticking at a steady rate like a metronome. I soon start to hear voices. They sound like nurses and doctors all around me, but I can't see them, or move. I soon hear a door click and assume they have left. "Hey Clara," I hear Lin's voice say. "We need you to come back. Everyone misses you. I'm a wreck, and I just need you. You have to keep fighting," I hear him say again. All I want is to be able to tell him i'm ok. I want to say that everything will be fine. I try to use all of my strenght to move anything, but I can't.

Days go on like this. The endless metronome of my heart, hearing, but not seeing everything around me, and the thing that hurts me the most, hearing how much pain I have brought Lin. The worst part about it is that this is my fault. I know if I just stayed in my room I would have been fine. This is also due to the fact that I was too scared to fight back. I had always imagined if I was in a situation like I was in I wouldn't let it happen and I would fight, but I guess it's just so different when it happens to you. All I want right now is to tell everyone i'm fine, to return back to my room at the theatre, and I really want a cheeseburger. One thing I have wondered is, how are they feeding me? I can't feel anything, but I can only guess it's a feeding tube down my throat. I have a million other questions and my days are filled with me pondering them.

Lin P.O.V

It's been 2 weeks. 2 weeks without seeing her bright smile. 2 weeks without seeing Clara make a joke out of anything. This has been tearing me apart. I hate how the world is so cruel to her. She is just a ray of sunshine, and she brings joy to everyone. The worst part is the doctors told me she has self harm scars all over her arms. I never knew about those and I just wish I knew to help her. All I wanted to do is to make her life better, but it is just going downhill.

I come to the hospital everyday, I only leave to shower, sleep, and perform. Everyone in the cast is so different now. We all miss Clara so much. In between shows we just sit and watch videos of her dancing, or pray that she will make it out alive. The doctors said that she had a major concussion and internal bleeding so bad, that she might not wake up. Once we finish the show for tonight I head to the hospital instead of home. I just felt like I had to apoligize to her. The nurses tell me she can't hear me, but I don't care.

I apoligize for not protecting her, and letting her hurt herself, and I apoligize for the world. I then grab her hand in mine and hold it. When I let go of her hand I feel her finger tap my palm. I then look at her face and see her eyes blink open beofre closing again. When this happens I tell the nurses and they tell me she should be awake within a month. I nod, grab my stuff, and head home.

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