Are you ok? (an adopted by hamilton)

Part 4

Today was Monday so I had the whole theatre to myself today. I decided to do what any dancer would with an empty stage, dance. I threw on a leotard and tights and grabbed my pointe shoes. I quickly slipped them on and turned on my music. I decided to do the Kirti variation from Don Q. As I started the music I have never felt more at home. Whenever I dance I feel like the only person in the world is me.

I can remember the first time I ever performed that solo which was 1 year ago at YAGP. It ended up with me at 9th place in the nation, so I was pretty proud of myself for that. I soon hear the music end and hear clapping. I get insanely scared and jump back when I realize it was Lin. "Clara! You are so good!" he shouts. "Thanks," I say slightly embaressed, knowing I had messed up. "I had no idea you were that good! Do you have another one you could show me?" he asks. "Yeah," I say while turning on the Talisman variation music.

I always feel so nervous when people watch me, but when the music starts and I start the steps into the arabesque, I forget he is there. Everything was going perfectly fine until I got to the hops en pointe to an arabesque. Something didn't feel right the whole time, but I just thought that was because I haven't done this variation in a long time. When I came out of the arabesque that's when I felt it. I feel to the ground clutching my shin. I heard Lin rush over to me and ask me if I was ok.

From there on it was kind of a blur. I remember going to the hospital and being checked on by various people before learning ehat happened. I had already had a stress fracture in my shin, but it turned in to a larger fracture. Now I am crutching out of the hospital with a big black cast and not being able to dance for 8 weeks. When we got to the car I lost it. Hot tears were streaming down my face and Lin was trying to comfort me. This really has just added to the worst year of my life.

Lin drives me back to the theatre and hugs me tightly. "Shhhhh, try to take deep breaths and calm down," he says sweetly. After calming me down Lin asks, "Do you wanna talk about what's going on?" "Yeah. I just feel like i'm not the same any more. My family was my everything and I don't want to live without them. I won't ever see my friends again either, or my dance studio, or any of my old life. I also can't even do the one thing that ahas relieved my pain temporarly," I spill out. "Hey, it's ok. I also got a call saying if you want we can go back to Texas and grab all of your things from your house that you want to keep," He tells me. "Ok," I say while slightly smiling. He then leaves to book the tickets and I fall asleep crying into my pillow.

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