ʜᴏᴡ ᴛᴏ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴀ ᴍᴏɴꜱᴛᴇʀ//ꜱᴇʙᴀꜱᴛɪᴀɴ ᴍɪᴄʜᴇᴀʟɪꜱ x ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ

shattered glass

i lay awake on my bed.the moon beaming through my small window into my room. my body tore between wanting to sleep and to just stay awake, its killing me.my eyes stare the dirty ceiling with a pounding headache plus a strange pained feeling in my lower back.i didn't want to move because of the pain, i felt like my body would just snap if i move,

"the hell happened?" i mumbled under my breath.i couldn't recall any memories that happened after i blacked out.just by attempting to recall, it made my head hurt more.

i scrunch my face in confusion when i felt uneasy in my stomach."did i forget something?" i mumbled, slowly moving my hand to my stomach.as my hand slapped itself on my stomach, i realized the problem."kid!" i yelled, sitting up."ow!" i grit my teeth together in pain, my cold bloody was shaking from the pain."the kid" i mumbled, slowly moving my body to get off the.but i ended up falling to the ground, my face slapping on the floor like it was a cheating bastard.

i push my body up from the ground, my teeth biting down on my lip.i held in my voice as i forced my body to get up from the ground.right when i stood on the ground, my knees quivered in pain, i fell against the wall leaving a thump echo in the next room." fuck" i muttered, slowly walking to the door using the wall as support.

my wet hair kept hitting my face, distracting me."damn grell" it's undeniable that it's grell's fault that i'm like this.i'm sure he tried to harm me when i was in pain."i don't want to see him again" i muttered but i should have knew better. that reaper fell in love with the demon, its likely i'll be seeing him more often than before i worked here.

my steps giving a soft echo to the hallway as i made my way to the kid's room." its farther then i remember" i mutter finally touching the doorknob. my hand twisted the cold thing, opening the door.i stumbled inside trying to not make too much noise.i finally reached the bed, i held on to the bedpost as i stared at the sleeping kid.

he was cuddled in the thick blankets, snoring away.i smiled "good" i sigh as i felt the uneasy feeling fade away.

"ma was i a good boy?" i watched the kid toss and turn in his bed.his small hands grasping on the pillows as if it was his mom.as if she would disappear if he didn't hold on firmly."ma, pa" he mumbled before going back to his soft snores.

the feeling of pity and not caring is killing me. suddenly my stomach let out a roar that echoed throughout the room.i slowly turned around to exit the room "i need coffee" at this point coffee wasn't helping at all.when i eat it all goes down like water, it doesn't last me 2 months like everyone else.at this rate i'll get eating half the population within a few months.

after making my way to the kitchen and making the coffee.i only stared at the coffee inside the teacup.the long process of it is always worth it in the end, that is what undertaker constantly says.i inhaled the coffee, it's bitter smell filling my nose." at least" i muttered, picking up the cup in my hands.the steamy hot cup heated up my hands.but i wondered why is the mansion cold? my fingers are so pale, i look like all my blood has been emptied from my body.

-

"mom why can't i wear a dress like everyone else?" i ask, my hand tugging my mother's dress.only i wore old pants and shirts that used to be dad's but was cut down to my size.

"because we can't afford to buy one every week because you keep destroying them.they aren't cheap" she smiled warmly before resting her soft hand on my head." dinner is ready and i expect the plate to be empty" she smiles before shoving a big plate of food.

i only stared at it "is this for dad?" i tilt my head in confusion.never do i get a large plate of food because of the lack of money we have.

"no honey...your father won't be coming home anymore"she spoke.the corner of her lips kept twitching as if she was trying to not present an expression other then smiling.

"why?" i ask

"because his kind isn't allowed to be alive dear.now eat your food or you'll be next" she smiles, her hand sliding under my chin.her fingernails somewhat pressed on my skin."we wouldn't want that now?"

-

i softly blow the coffee before taking a sip, the familiar bitter flavor- it's not the same. taking another sip, the normal bitter flavor wouldn't taste this dull. it's like i am bearly savoring anything. my fingers grasped around the cup in anger.my elbows hitting on the counter, the action caused small droplets of coffee to fall on the counter."damn it" i muttered.

-

"well what could be consequences, are that your meals won't last long nor taste as it should.well for you of course"undertaker snickered from his small error."but additionally your emotions will be all over the place, it's plausible you won't be in control at times"

"Great, I'm going to be accused of something i didn't do. might as well put myself in a cell" i fussed as i taste the red drink i held in my hand.

"don't be startled if you behave more demon-like. such as needing a partner or being affected throughout the moon's curse.which you'll come back here for your own safety"

"i can take responsibility for myself" i narrowed my eyes."i-"

"dear, jack won't be there to assist you if you mess up."

"don't speak of his name" i dip the glass to my mouth, downing myself into its flavor "I'm proficient enough, i can take charge of myself"

-

my fingers squeezed around the cup, with abrupt rage washing over me. the recalling memory hinting me what i did to stay alive.my hand began to visibly tremble.i felt an emotion of uncontrollable sadness and anger combined."d-damn it all" my voice piped before the glass shattered. my body only recoiled from the harsh echo that moved throughout the mansion.

i stared at the small fragments of glass that scattered everywhere.my teeth press together as my hand loosened up.the small glass pieces dropped to the counter mixed in with the blood and coffee spill.

"oh why, why why why" i repeated to myself."damn you" i muttered," the small wounds in my hand quickly healed up, making the small wounds seem like it never existed."damn reaper, why didn't he tell me?!" i whispered to myself, my hand pushing my damp air out of my face.

my body winced from the sudden zap on my collarbone "miss y/n, is everything alright?", i immediately turned my head towards the doorway to see the butler. he stood there with the candles shining on him, his sharp red eyes on me and only me, it wasn't so calming in the dark.

"yes...yes!yes!" i hastily picked up the shattered pieces of glass and tossing it away. as time kept moving, making the sting grow more intense.

"slow down or you'll get injured" the butler sets the candles down and grabs a rag.

"i'll clean it up myself, go away would you!" i murmured "every time you're around something bad always happens" i grumble to myself. he only stood there, watching me hastily pick everything up.

"you' re sensing it, aren't you?" i hesitated, which gave him his answer. my head turned to the butler who still kept his eyes on me.the small cocky smirk on his face. his firm posture, it all irritates me.demons would do anything to get a meal, to make a bargain, anything! they would even play dress up just to consume a soul.

"feeling what?" i narrowed my eyes.i turn back to the mess i created. my hands rushing to wipe it away."i don't have time for this" i muttered.

"you're feeling a painful sensation aren't you? or am i mistaken" my movement reduced to his question? pushing myself to hurry to finish up and end this discussion.

"what the hell are you implying? the passionate burning feeling of resentment i have for demons similar to you?" he only chortled to my answer.

"no, not quite.i suggested the connection between fated lovers"