I'm writting some of my thoughts, albeit not all of them, on here to help better understand the depths of the rabbit hole.
A world that is very much similar yet all together foreign to the world that we all live in, yet not very many get to see or experience themselves.
My biggest hope with taking these notes is to shed some light in the times where we all feel lost and confused, where the darkness and shadows blend together to make a mystifying world that when you return to the light, we either forget about it or we choose to ignore it based on an infinite number of variables.
Before I can even tell you my story though, I have to tell you a bit about my mother. She is the nicest lady you could ever hope to meet with an explosive temper that could chase even demons away from her.
She suffers from schizo-affective disorder or stress induced schizophrenia. And me being a homeschooled introvert kinda kid I spent a lot of time with her and the illness. Now, whether or not I was born with this illness or because I was surrounded by it all the time and I inherited it I may never know, but regardless, I have a varient of it.
But the more I am learning about my family history and the illness itself from an introspective and perspective approach, the more I realize that my reality is very different from what most could or would consider to be "reality".
And this, whatever I'm writing, probably fiction for sanities sake, is just a collection of observations from what I can remember.
So sit down, buckle up, and take everything here with a grain of salt.
And most importantly, enjoy the show! <3 <3 <3
(This is not meant to be used in place of anything that can legitimately help with mental health issues, but rather, it's just a collection of stories throughout my life so far, depression and anxiety and the whole slew of other mental health issues should still be tackled with your friends, family, and medical professionals.)
