All These New Beauty Marks

Chapter 10

I slowly open my eyes but quickly close them as I feel a pain worse than any other pulsate in my body. I hear voices yelling and people asking Henry what happened. There is panic in their voices and people placing things under head. I hear Henry speaking and thats all I try to focus on.

"Is there somebody we can call honey?" A woman says.

"Um yeah his names Spencer, he works with my mom. Mom said his phone number is written on a note thats taped to her bedroom mirror. Its up the stairs to the left." Yes Spencer, I want him to be here if I wake up. When I wake up. I hear people asking Henry if he knows where Kent went. I know he doesn't. I feel badly for putting him through this. I just didn't expect it. Suddenly I can't even think and everything, my mind included, goes dead.

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I slowly blink as light seeps into my eyes.

"Hey there." A doctor says as she enters my line of sight.

"Where's Spencer?" I ask.

"Listen honey." She says while taking a seat on the bed. "We called Spencer and he rushed over here but..."

"But what?" I ask. I start to panic.

"He was speeding and... he was in a hurry so he wasn't wearing his seat belt. I'm sorry he was in an accident and it doesn't look like he's gonna wake up." She says sadly.

"But... he's alive?" I ask.

"Well yes, his body is alive but he is brain dead, he isn't gonna wake up." She says with a sincerety I've never heard. Suddenly what she is saying clicks and all my memories of Spencer flash in my mind. The room goes blurry and I can only manage to whisper.

"Spencer... no Spence please, Spencer no.." My eyes slowly shut.

"SPENCER!! SPENCE NO! PLEASE!" I wake to arms shaking me as I scream. I open my eyes and strong arms wrap around me I struggle to get out but then I hear a voice.

"Jayje I'm here, I'm here, you had a nightmare." I look up to see Spence cradling me in his arms.

SPENCERS POV

I look at JJ's seemingly lifeless body and wonder how I let this happen. I shouldn't have let her go home alone. I should've been there to protect here. Suddenly JJ begins to stir which shakes me out of my thoughts.

"SPENCER!! SPENCE! NO! PLEASE!" She starts flailing and she shoots up and starts hitting and kicking. Her screaming catches me off gaurd and I rush over to soothe her. I wrap her in my arms. She tries to fight me off but I assure that I am here. I keep my grip tight and try my best to restrain her. All of the sudden she stops fighting completely and tears start to pore from her eyes. I slowly let go to see if she will stop hitting but she grabs on my arm while keeping her gaze set forward. She doesn't say anything but she doesn't have to. I take her small, boney arm in my hand and press her shoulder to lay her back down. She continues to cry as she remains with her gaze forward, avoiding mine. We sit like that until she shifts to sit up. She pulls her knees up to her chest and wraps her arms around her legs. Her white hospital dress with small blue flowers hangs limply on her smal frame. She for some reason is dead set on keeping her gaze straight not daring to shift it. It's like she's afraid to look at me but I do not break the connection. I keep my hand on her at all times, I'm afraid that if I let go she'll slowly dissapear out of existence. She sits there for what I can only guess to be hours until finally, she breaks the ever so lasting silence.

"You died." She says. "You died Spence, in my dream." She says, the tears trickling down one by one. Not much like a waterfall, but a steady, small stream.