All These New Beauty Marks

Chapter 16

It has been 1 day since I first thought I might be pregant and still no period. I would love to be a mother but of course, not with Kent. I wouldn't be able to have a child that I could see him in. His eyes look of evil and his voice is rough, like a smoker. I certiantly wouldn't want him to know I had a baby because he would screw everything up. For some reason I can't get these thoughts out of my mind, but its not like I haven't been late before. I have no way of knowing though. Spencer takes his car in the morning and mine is still at my house. I can't ask Spencer because, I just can't. I know he would try and support me but I just don't know what to do. I decide to turn to someone else; Emily. I decide it would probably be best to call her.

"Hey Jayje. Whatsup hun? Miss us already." I could almost hear her smile.

"You have no idea. Thats not why I'm calling though."

"Alright so what gives me this plessure?" She asked.

"Who are you with right now."

"Spence and Hotch why?"

"Get out of their earshot."

"Alright... I am now. Are you okay?" For some reason when she asked that, I just broke.

"No." I said my voice cracking. "Emily I might have a big problem but you can't tell anybody." I choked.

"Jennifer breath. Okay talk to me."

"I think I might be pregant and I haven't slept with anybody since before the hospital and... I'm a loyal person. If I am it means its-" I stopped talking. I couldn't choke out the words but Emily knows exactly what I'm saying.

"Okay okay. Don't panic. What do you need."

"I need a test." I breathed.

"Okay but JJ if your pregnant are you gon-"

"Emily I don't know. I can't be a single mom with this job." Also, I knew that if I was pregant it might ruin whatever relationship I was starting up with Spence and I really want to be with him. I can't say it to Emily though.

"Okay I'll be right over with the test. You're at Reids right?" Emily asked me.

"Yeah. Thankyou Emily." I said and hung up. Luckily the case is in DC so she's close. I set my phone down and waited for her on the couch. I don't really feel pregnant, but then again, I might not be far along. Yes, I used to choose to sleep with Kent but the assault went right up until I was out of the hospital. So I could be 3 months (which obviously I'm not) or 3 weeks. Who knows. Suddenly I hear a knock at the door.

Third Person view.

"Jayje? Its Emily."

"He Em." JJ said opening the door.

'Okay I got 2 tests so here. I'll stay if you want." Emily offered.

"Yeah okay. You can sit in my bedroom." JJ showed Emily to her bedroom and Emily took a seat on the foot of the bed. She noticed it hadn't seemed to be slept in. In fact, there was just to flat pillows on the bed. From the sleepovers Emily has had with JJ, she knew that JJ used like 100 pillows.

"Okay Em. You can come in here." JJ said from the bathroom. Emily got up but notcoed something as she was walking to the bathroom. There was one side on Reids bed with 2 pillows and one with 4. Emily wondered about the possibility.

"I'm just waiting for it to show." JJ said as she sat on the edge of the tub staring at the test.

"Hey Jayje. I have a question. Its just a question so don't get mad if I'm wrong." Emily said.

"Okay." JJ shrugged.

"Are you and Reid... like a thing?"

"I probably shouldn't say anything but you're my best friend so I will." Emily smiled. She had always hoped Reid and JJ would get together. "So at the hotel, before I went to the hospital, Spence and I kind of had a moment. I kissed him and we slept in the bed to together, literally." JJ explained. Emily nodded her head in understandment and held back a smile. "And so we kind of just forgot about it. Then yesterday morning, I yelled at him to wake up. He jokes about me getting pay back and he pulled me back into bed. You know, like play fighting. But then, I was under him and he had me pinned down and before I knew it, I was having a make out session, with Spence. I really do like him, he comforted me alot these couple days. I couldn't have done this without him." JJ spewed out her feeling to Emily.

"Oh my god I'm so happy for you. You guys are so cute." Emily said hugging JJ. By the time the hug was over the test was showing.

"Okay moment of truth." JJ said holding the test in fron of their eyes." JJ's eyes adjusted and she saw the symbol; a plus sign. It felt like her heart had physically dropped. "I'm getting an abortion." She said the words before she even thought them.

"JJ think about it first. I don't want you to have regrets." Emily said rubbing her back.

"I can't have my abusers baby. I can't. Emily you know that kind pof thing runs in the family. No." JJ sounded so terrified and Emily could hear it.

"JJ you will make an amazing mother. This baby will be so lucky to have an amazing mother like you and I know any child of yours, will turn out nothing short of amazing." Emily tried to soothe JJ. Of course, she would support JJ no matter what she decided but she knew JJ would love a child no matter what.

"But what if Spencer doesn't want me because I'm knocked up." She cried. Spencer was everything to her at this point.

"Oh he will hunny and you know he will."

"I know." She said wiping her tears. "I ned him to help me decide." She sniffled. "I'll tell him tonight."

A/N: so sorry I have not been posting much lately I havent had much motivation but yeah I'll post as much as I can.