All These New Beauty Marks

Chapter 14

As Spence breaks away from our embrace in the bathroom he speaks again.

"Come on, it's getting late." He says as he walks out of the bathroom and into a spare room. He gestures for me to sit on the bed and he grabs cloths out of one of the bags I brought. I sit on the bed, feeling like a child, but also feeling loved. He grabs a pair of high wasted plaid pajamas and a tight fitting grey tank top. "Is this good?" He asks.

"Yeah, thanks." I say with a forced smile.

"Okay I will be in the kitchen getting us a snack if you need me." He says excusing himself from the room and closing he door. I let down the towel and put underwear and bra on, which Spencer let me pick out myself obviously. I pull on the pants above my hips and they threaten to fall so I sinche the adjustable waist and tie the string. I throw on the the tank top and it fits perfectly under the pants. I realize its pretty cold so I check to see if I brought a hoodie.

"Damnit." I say to myself realizing I didn't.

"Whats wrong Jayje." Spence says as he stands in the doorway.

"Well you're house is freezing because you are a weirdo and I didn't bring any sweatshirts." I say slightly with a smile.

"Well I do not appreciate the 'weirdo' remark." He says pretending to be hurt. "But I do have a hoodie you can wear. Follow me." He says as he heads to his bedroom. I stand in the doorway as he opens his drawer. He comes back over and stands behind me as he guides me over to it. "Choose." He says simply.

"Hmm okay what a tough choice." I say jokingly but it actually is. I finally settle on a black one that just has an FBI logo on the right breast because it seems the thickest. I slip into swiftly and the FBI logo is more at my ribs which makes me laugh. The hoodie is a size small in mens but it still looks gigantic on me. Spencer and I both giggle at how silly I look.

"Well..." he says checkinghis watch, "its pretty late so I am going to send you to bed." He says.

"Awe c'mon just one movie." I say and put my hands together.

"Fine." He says as he rabs the tv remote for his bedroom tv. "Sit down you night owl." He says jokingly. I get on the bed and prop myself

"So what will we be watching." I said in a joking tone.

"I don't know lets see whats on cable." He said also jumping on the bed.

We decided to watch a movie about a war I don't remember what it was called though.

SPENCER POV
The movie finally finishes and I start saying somthing to JJ about it, who has her head on ny chest and her hands clasped together into her chest. When I look down to speak though, she is fast asleep. I can't help the smile at the sight before me. I know I can't leave her like this though so pick her up as gently as possible, remembering that she hasn't been held gently for a while now. I slowly set her down in the quest room bed and pull the covers over her.  One of hee cheeks was flushed red from being pressed against my chest. It saddens me to tink about how much pain this person I love so dearly is in and I am reminded of it everytime I look at her. Her skin is burned, some covered in patches and some not. I just want to tell her that every wound on her body is beautiful, because she is a beautiful person, but I can't. I walk out of the room quietly because I don't want to disturb her.

"Spence?" I look behind me to see a sleepy JJ looking up at me.

"Yeah Jayje?"

"Will you stay with me, just until I fall asleep?" She sniffles as she says it which probably means she just woke up from some kind of dream. I nod and walk over to her and slowly het i to the left side of the bed. I pull the covers up over the both of us. She inches closer to me every once on awhile so eventually I just pull her all the way. We both sit on our sides facing eachother. "Thankyou."She says but now, the crying is much more prominent.

"Why are you crying." I ask her while I stroke her hair.

"I don't know." She says smiling slightly.

"Wanna talk about it?" I make the voice as calming as I can just to make her open up.

"Well, I miss Henry for one." She says wiping her tears.

"I know but he is in good care right now and you need to heal this and this." I say the 'this and this' and point to her general body snd her brain
"Maybe we could call him in the  morning?" I say trying to cheer her up.

"I just don't know how feel ya know? Like as soon as I'm happy I just feel upset and I don't know what to do." I know she is trying to sound strong but I don't care about if she cries all I want is for her to let me in. I respond in the only way I can think of. I plant a kiss on her head as I pull her into and embrace.

"You are loved." I say as I stroke her hair, because I want her to know that but I don't wanna tell her that I love her because well I actually think I might be in love with her.