Everything In Sight

Sad.

Its sad. Everything is. I lost my one constant. Now everything is weird. I don't know what to feel anymore. One minute I'm crying, the next I'm remembering memories, the next I'm mad, and over and over again. Plus more. What am I supposed to do now? I don't really have anything to look forward to anymore. You were the thing I looked forward to. I don't have a shoulder to cry on anymore. You were my shoulder. I don't have my real smile anymore. Because you were the reason for my happiness. I don't care if it's selfish or not. I want you back. I want to prove to you that I'm changing. That I'm better. I'm realizing what I'm doing more. I don't want to cry everyday anymore. I don't want to stay up all night, alone with my thoughts of you. I'm so sorry. Everything's my fault and now I can't take anything back. I've ruined everything. Maybe I really should just end it all. I wouldn't cause so many problems anymore. You wouldn't have to worry about me. No one would. I wouldn't cause problems, I wouldn't make stupid decisions, I wouldn't argue. Nothing. You'd forget about me soon, though. I'm not someone people remember. I'm sorry for everything. I don't know what to do anymore.