Everything In Sight

Less and less.

It really seems everything is less and less.
I don't feel like you want to see me that much anymore. I'm scared.
I'm scared you're going to end things.
I can see the signs.
You're looking at me less and less.
Smiling at me less and less.
Laughing with me less and less.
Everything is less and less.
What do I do?
I don't want to hide my emotions.
But I can't show them, either.
Everything is falling apart.
I feel like you want me less and less.
I feel like crying.
I'm shaking as I'm typing this.
I feel horrible.
Both physically and emotionally.
I hate hurting you.
That's exactly what I'm doing.
I feel like shit because of it.
But I don't want to shit on myself.
I can't do anything right.
I hate myself.
But I don't want to hate myself.
I want to make everything better.
What if I can't do it?
What if everyone leaves because you do?
What if you leave..?
Everything is just less and less.