Is It?

Chapter 5

You'd been at work thinking about your date all morning and you couldn't help but quietly squeal in complete glee. You were surprised when afternoon rolled around and you still hadn't gotten a text or call from Jihoon. You were thinking that maybe he'd finally given up and realized that things were over. It was looking like it was going to be a good day.

Until your assistant popped her head in. "Uhmm...hey"

"Hmm?" You answered without looking up from your computer

"Jihoon is here." She said timidly

You fingers stopped moving across the keyboard. "I'm sorry, you
said what?"

She took a deep breath. "Jihoon...He's here..."

You closed your eyes and rubbed the bridge of your nose. 'So much
for a good day.' You thought.

You didn't even get a chance to tell her to send him out or to let him back. He just said excuse me and let himself into your back office.

You didn't stand up when he walked in and closed the door behind him. You folded your arms and adopted that irritated smirk that your mama gave when she knew she was about to catch you in a lie.

The two of you sat across from each other not saying anything for a solid minute.

"Nothing to say?" He finally broke the silence.

"I'm honestly just trying to understand why you're here." You shot back. You were in no mood for this.

"C Jamm told me he saw you out last night." He leaned back in the chair and folded his arms. You recognized this stance. He was settling in for a fight. Good because you had plenty to say.

"He did. I don't understand why you or him felt it was any of your business." You leaned back and crossed your legs. You let your arms remain on the arm rest.

"It's been two months and you already hopping onto the next dick? I mean damn, I at least thought you woulda gave yo pussy a break." He was serious. His nostrils flared when he talked. He was really pissed off.

"You! The same muh fucka that was dickin down that bitch while I was at home waitin for yo ass." You immediately leaned forward in your chair.

"Were you fucking him when you were in California?" His voice was barely above a whisper and was completely frigid. Some people would be frightened by the tone but it only served to fuel your fire.

"No, Jihoon, I was not. I'm not you. I understand what it means to be in a committed relationship. I wouldn't hurt the person I claim to love like that. " You paused. "You got a lotta nerve coming here questioning what I'm doing and who I'm doing it with." You answered in a tone quieter and colder than his. You were surprised and proud that you were still seated.

"I did love you. Why do you think I keep calling and texting trying to talk to yo ol stubborn ass? I want to make us right, again." He said tiredly. Clearly, Ji-hoon was under the impression that you would have made up by now.

You scoffed at that. "No, you didn't love me." Your eyes closed and you shook your head "Do you think you loved me when you lied to my face? You think you loved me when you pushed me to the side for her? You think you loved me while you kissed her, held her, while you were with her?" You asked accusingly. Anger began to heat the sides of your face the blood began pounding in your ears as you got everything off your chest.

"I loved you, Jihoon. I adored everything about you. I waited hoped, prayed, cried and begged that I was wrong. I knew you wouldn't do me like that. Not you." You had to look away from him, feeling the angry tears welling up.

"I put you above and before everybody else. I was faithful. Do you think that temptation didn't knock on my door? Of course, it did but I thought we had something. I was good to you? Why would you hurt me like that?" You felt the tears sting again your eyes and grunted in frustration. You suffered from the same thing a lot of people did, you cried when you were angry.

"Now you're going to sit there and ask me if I was fucking around on you. No. No. and no some more. I would never make you question yourself like that. I would never feed you lie after lie and try to make you feel crazy for suspecting something. So, what you can do is get all the way the
fuck out my face." You rose from your desk and walked to the door.

"I don't think we have anything else to say. You should leave." You held the door, standing as poised as you could manage with tears still in your eyes.

"I'm sorry. I really am." He paused weighing his words. " I don't know why I didn't think it'd ever come to this. I honestly thought..." Jihoon looked at you in amazement. He realized that the hurt he'd caused you ravaged what was between you. There was nothing left for him to salvage and the best thing he could do was to let you alone to heal. He shook his head "I'm sorry" He muttered.

He paused at the door less than a few inches from you and leaned in to press a kiss to your cheek. You turned your head avoiding it and motioned for the door without another word.

You and your assistant stood there in the aftermath. You'd never acted out at work. Your business was something near and dear to you. You'd prided yourself on providing a comfortable and professional environment in this building. You managed to maintain that today.

Everything in you screamed to yell, scream and cuss. As much as you wanted to slap the taste out of his mouth ,you didn't allow one man to make you come out your skin and show your whole ass.

"Drink?" You asked with mock cheerfulness walking back into your office. "Go ahead and wrap up. We're going out." You threw over your shoulder.

"Oh my gosh, I'm glad you said it." She answered back.