You Are My ☀️Sunshine☀️ {suicidal Midoriya X Todoroki} {DONE EDITING}

{Burden}

Midoriya's POV,

Darkness

Loneliness

Unhappiness

'Why don't you just go take a swan dive off the next building and pray that you'll be born with a quirk in your next life Hahaha'

'SHUT UP YOU WORTHLESS SHIT'

'I'm sorry Izuku Midoriya But you are part of the 20% of this world that doesn't have a quirk'

'Izuku...honey I'm so sorry'

Why when did it all go wrong

'Young man, I'm sorry but you can't be a hero without a quirk'

These people why, why did this happen this wasn't supposed to happen

I feel so small I can't breath what is the feeling and why is it so dark is this the afterlife... ha if it is I'm sorry mom that I died but I love you...

Suddenly I hear words reminding me that it's was possible for me to become a hero, not just any hero the number one here....

'Young Man You Too Can Become A hero'

My eyes shot wide open

"Huh huh huh w-what the h-heck was that." I heavily pant

I get out of my bed, I stretch a little bit and rub my eyes to adjust to the morning light.

After that, I go to the bathroom to do what I always do cut...I turn on the light close the door and lock it hopefully my mom isn't awake I look at myself in the mirror and see a horrible sight...

Fat

Disgusting

Waste of air

Ugly

Pathetic

Nerd

Idiot

Weak

Worthless

I'm a Deku...

I look at my wrists lines cover them up and down but not just any lines scars some deep and some not...I fell like making some more...I look around the bathroom and find my cutting razors...

{❌TRIGGER WARNING❌}

I began to make cuts one by one some cuts over cuts and some new and deeper ones it feels so good I love the tingling sensation it made me feel amazing I loved self pain 'someone please help me.' Wait why???

Why do I need help I don't know why I'm like this I have the number ones quirk the quirk that holds the power of defeated All For One so why do I do this to myself.

Why do I feel like I need the be punished I have everything that anyone could want I have the perfect boyfriend the most perfect mom that anybody could ask for so why??

Huh, why do I make my life so miserable....oh yeah it's because of him the one and only Katsuki Bakugo he makes me feel so Weak every day I don't know why he does this to me telling me to die everywhere I turn around telling me that I don't deserve love or a quirk...

I don't deserve to be a hero

He's right how can I become a hero if I can't even save myself from Will myself.

I made the cuts deeper than feeling weaker by just thinking about it feeling more and more hateful feelings about myself

*BEEP BEEP BEEP*

I hear my clock turn off damn it...

I stood up from the bathroom floor blood dripping from my wrist I went to the sink to wipe the blood I hissed in pain the cold water stings. I quickly wrap bandages around my wrists.

I look in the mirror and say to myself...
"You gonna be fine everything is gonna be ok." I smile knowing that I'm lying to myself knowing that I'm not going to be fine knowing that everything is going to end soon so I might as will say those things to myself to help my fake smile get better right,

Wrong

I go to back to my room to get ready for school I hear my mom walking in the hallway heading for my room probably to see if I'm up I hear her knock on my door.

*knock knock*

"Izuku honey you up." She spoke

"Ya mom just getting ready," I responded she then said ok and left

I finish getting ready and leave my room where my mom is in the hallway waiting for me she's looking down, w-what happened did I leave the razors out did she see blood on them...

"Hey izuku....are you ok?" She looks down at her socks

Hmm where did this come from

"Yes, mom I'm perfectly fine!!! Why??" I lie and put on a big smile to make is convincing.

"It's just that...you've been distant and the light in your eyes there not there anymore.." She looks up at me with tears in her eyes

"...." I can't answer her, I don't wanna get to worry I'm already a burden on her so I don't want to make it worse so I'll just lie like I always do.

"Mom I'm fine ok." I look at her and smile again "So don't cry." I walk up to her and wipe her tears as I hug her tightly.

"sniff* ya ok..." we stayed there for a little while until I had to leave I waved her goodbye and started walking to school

Hopefully shouto doesn't ask about my certain behavior I don't want to make her worry he already has enough to deal with at home considering his dad is a complete training and abusive fuck and ever since his mother left he has never felt the same will that was until I came along he told me that I made his life better.....

He doesn't have to lie to me I know, I know everything all my friends are fake they all hate me no more love, I'm a burden to them,

Especially for him...

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I hope that you all liked my first chapter and I hope that you all didn't cry please don't I didn't but It hurt writing this but anyway more depressed Izuku and sad Shouto in the next chapter byeeeeee
{THIS CHAPTER HAS BEEN UPDATED}