I'm an Angel

Please do something

You didn't know how long you sat there crying before Sam told you it was time to go. You picked up Dean's lifeless body and walked outside, forgetting that you had teleported and didn't have a car. You turn around and look at Sam.
"I'm sorry Sam I forgot about the whole car thing."
"It's okay. Let's just leave." Sam grabs Dean from you so you can grab Sam's shoulder and flash back to the hotel. Once you arrive you start packing your things to leave.
"Um (Y/N) what are you doing? We can't leave now. It'll be too late by the time we get back."
"I can't stay here and sleep next to his lifeless body. I'll take Dean and go back to the bunker."
"Alright. But don't burn his bones without me." Sam sighs
"I'm not burning him. He's getting buried."
"No! We can't take that chance of him coming back as a ghost!" Sam suddenly begins to shout.
"What if I want him back as a a ghost!? Besides his spirit is long gone by now. When I healed him his spirit was already gone. He's somewhere else now." You say as you choke back tears. Once you have everything packed you pick up Dean again and say goodbye to Sam.
"Bye Sam. I'll uh I'll see you tomorrow." Before he has a chance to say bye you were gone.

Castiel sits in the library waiting for some sign of life. Luckily for you popped up in yours and Dean's room. You lay him gently onto the bed, once you make him comfortable you walk out. Walking towards the library you spot Cas.
"Oh hey Cas I didn't realize you were here."
"Hello (Y/N). What are you doing back so early?"
"I needed to clear my head." You lie
"Oh okay"
"Can I ask what are you doing here?"
"I was just checking in. I'll see you later."
Cas flashes out of the room and the bunker falls silent. You decide to call Maya to get your mind off the recent events. You dial her number and listen patiently
Hello?
Maya?
(Y/N)? Oh my gosh I haven't heard from you in so long!
I was actually hoping we could meet up?
Absolutely I'll meet you at the park in 5
Okay see you there
See you
You teleport to the park and sit on the swing and wait. You hear the flapping of wings signaling that Maya had arrived. You stood up and wrapped her tightly in a hug.
"Hey"
You couldn't hold your tears back anymore, you had put on a mask for Sam and for Cas but you couldn't do it around Maya not after she had helped you so much.
"Hey hey (Y/N) what's wrong?"
"He's dead Maya! Dean he..." You didn't have to finish your sentence for her to know. She hugged you again and waited until the sobs died down. Once you had stopped crying the two of sat down on the swings.
"It hurts Maya."
"I know."
"It feels like apart of my heart has been ripped out, stomped on, the shoved back into my body. I mean I know angels aren't supposed to have feelings but..."
"It because you still have your soul."
"What?"
"I wasn't supposed to tell you that. But along with your angel grace, your soul is floating around in there too. That's why Cas keeps saying you're different and why you have stronger emotions than the rest of us."
"Oh."
"Yeah. So what are you going to do about Dean?"
"I'm waiting until Sam gets here so we can bury him."
"Isn't that kinda dangerous for your line of work? What if he comes back as a ghost?"
"He won't. When I healed him his spirit was already long gone. Telling me that he left not long after he died, which hurts even worse."
"I'm sorry (Y/N)."
"It's okay. It's not your fault if only I had gotten to him in time."
"No! You're not putting the blame on yourself, Dean wouldn't of wanted it that way. He would want you to pick yourself up and keep fighting."
"Yeah I know." You let out a small smile, knowing that's exactly what Dean would want, but your smile soon fades. You and Maya sit next to each other without saying a word for what feels like hours.
"I'm going to head back to the bunker and get ready for tomorrow."
"Okay. Stay strong (Y/N), I love you"
"Love you too Maya. I'll see you later."
"See ya."
You and Maya hug and go your separate ways

You get back to the bunker with a few left until morning.
Sam will be here soon enough. You reassure yourself as you down the hall to a spare room. You eventually find a spare room away from your actual room. You sit on your bed and stare at the wall. After a few minutes you start praying for Chuck. You hear the ruffle of feathers and turn your head to look at Chuck.
"(Y/N) what's wrong?"
"Chuck you have to do something. Please Chuck you have to bring him back." You beg as tears fill your eyes.
"I'm sorry (Y/N) but I can't."
For the millionth time you feel your heart shatter.
"But you can." Chuck sighs
"What do you mean?"

Sam drives well over the speed limit as he was trying to get to the bunker as fast as he can. What you didn't know is that Sam only slept for 2 hours and he's been on the road for 10.
Only six more hours Sam you can do this. He says to give himself encouragement.
"Sam."
The sound of another voice causes Sam to jump.
"Oh hey Cas."
"Sam where's Dean?"
"(Y/N) didn't tell you?"
"No she said she needed space."
"Oh. Dean um he died Cas." Sam says in a sad tone.
"Oh. Is that why you're speeding?"
"Yes because I need to get back to the bunker."
"Pull over."
"What Cas no!"
"Pull over Sam."
Sam does as he's told knowing Cas won't take no as an answer. Castiel places two fingers on Sam's head, teleporting him to the bunker. Once Sam is gone Castiel slides into the front seat and continues towards the bunker.

You hear foot steps walking towards your room. You sit silently staring at the same wall you've been staring at for hours when the door to your room opens.
"Hey (Y/N)."
You remain silent
"Look (Y/N) I know you're hurting but we need to get this over with." The door to your room opens again and Dean walks in.