Nothing Was The Same

Learning Starr

Starr and May came up with an idea for Starr to change schools. And remember she doesn't like change. But if you wanna better life, something gotta give. And she knew that. She changed middle schools 6th grade year 2nd semester, and 7th grade 1st semester. I believe she did pretty damn well, until she went back to the school she left for a year, then went back for 3 more semesters.  Which means, she was 12 going on 13 then comes 14. And that's when shit was about to get real... But she didn't let anything stop her. Don't you guys ever forget that.  It was in like October of 2014. Starr had returned back to the middle school she had left her 6th grade year. When she went back...well before. She was talking to this guy. They met on twitter. Then they both found out that, they'll be attending the same school. So why not date. She was in 7th, and he was in 8th. She liked older guys for some reason. It wasn't nothing wrong with that, because guys Starr age aren't as mature. But anyway, back to the point. She met the guy, Sean. That was his name. He was the first guy she thought would be her everything until it all got fucked up. Sean was the first guy to meet May. He was Starr's first kiss. First real date(s). First time being alone with a guy. First time getting a hickey. First time getting fingered. And first time ALMOST trying to fuck. She didn't though. They would be grown and try to have sex but it was just something about Starr that wasn't ready. Everyone she was hanging out with around that time was having sex though. It didn't make them cool. Because sex is normal. Well if you're mature enough to talk about it. Everyone's different. Starr and Sean dated for a good, solid, 8 in a half months. Until she fucked it up. She went on a date with this guy. And he kissed her, both knowing she's with Sean. So those two made out. And slowly, but surely she had forgotten all about Sean. She knew what she did was wrong. She knew she had to tell Sean. She didn't know how though. Believe me when I tell you she always came up with a solution. Starr never waited around dwelling on the bad things. She always told herself that "Life goes on and doesn't stop for anyone." She's always been herself. You couldn't pick her. She was the one to always take full responsibility of her own actions and never blame others for it. Starr was not your normal girl. Shorty had brains out of this world. TRUST. So, few days past by. She told Sean what was up. He forgave her. And she couldn't understand how he could be so forgiven so openly and easily. He fought for their relationship, even after she told him that she made out with another guy, and she just threw it all away. They're still friends til this day. That's the only thing Starr says she regret in life. Losing Sean was like losing herself. I think that, there maybe a time where they'll reunite. Only the future knows. But after their 8 month in a half relationship, Starr turned 13. But nothing much happened in that time period. When ya girl turned 14, oh boy. Nothing was the same.

It was May 15, 2015. It was Starr's 8th grade dance. She had just turned 14 a few weeks before. Be very well aware that she was fly. And her cute ass had a date. They looked nice, okay. They showed up at the dance together. But they didn't leave together. Forgot to mention, it was her date's birthday. SO imagine going to the 8th grade dance with a cute date, it's his birthday....and then outta no where you ditch him. CRAZY RIGHT. Starr was a player. Well in some aspects of her life. From here and there. She had her moments. So as you know, if you have a 8th grade dance, you're expecting an 8th grade class graduation. Which means you're a upcoming freshmen in high school. Shit is  about to change. Starting with leaving 8th grade going into the summer. Hitting up Six Flags every now and then. Getting guys numbers. Leaving em' on read. Or maybe just delivered. This girl was a player. She had game, OKAY! But that shit didn't last long. Until one day she meets her match some time soon.  Starr wasn't the type to sit around and beat around the bush. She got her way. How she wanted. When she wanted. And boy was she smooth. She was such a flirt. But she always kept in her mind, not to make physical contact first. She was a go with the flow type of a girl. Unless she wasn't with it, she wouldn't be scared to let anybody know. 

AUGUST 10, 2015

Freshmen Year 

STARR'S POV:

So it's my first day of my high school year. Fresh-meat as the upper classmen would say. I have on a blue dress, with some cute ass sandals that you won't find any where. I have on a face full of make up. I'm attracting a lot of attention. I can feel it. I can hear people around me saying "tHaT's a fReShMeN" , like bitch you were a freshmen once upon a time too. My first day though, I was lost as fuck. Like really lost in the sauce. But I found my way. High school was a place where everything got real and changed quick as fuck. It's like thin ice. Well for me it is. Well that's all I can think to share with you as of now.... I'm sure I'll get thru this. Can't nothing stop me. Wel.......I'll write back when something interesting happens.

A month and maybe two weeks passed by. And Starr met her FIRST REAL REAL boyfriend. It was around September. But they didn't like really date until October. October 19, to be exact. His name was JP.  He was a Junior. She was a freshmen. Nobody really told her that she was supposed to stay away from upperclassmen. So she learned on her own. JP was 16. Starr was 14. Which means that, they're two years apart. They went to the same school. They lived in the same neighborhood. Their houses were built the same exact way, which she hated because of so many memories. But just hear it all out. JP wasn't the worst,  but he wasn't the best either. JP and Sean were so much alike. And for some reason she thought that it was weird. Or she thought that it was a sign. Hell, who knows? JP put Starr on to a lot of shit. He was smart. He was good at basketball, but didn't play for their high school, he also drove. Oh, and he smoked weed. He had a big heart. But some of his ways were fucked up. But ya girl managed it. He was also a mama's boy. Their relationship was everyone's favorite. They brought out the best in each other. One day, it was Halloween. It was Starr's first time smoking weed. And she wasn't that high, but she knew that she was under the influences. Once she started smoking that weed, everything changed. Life slapped her in the face. Shit got real, real QUICK. JP put on her on to smoking. And because they lived so close by each other, they blew down everyday. And then sooner than later, it became ya girls habit. It wasn't as bad but she took it there. And he didn't really like her smoking so much, but they still fucking did it anyway. Days past by, and they're smoking like every single day. 

One day JP, Starr, JP's friends and Starr's one friend. Her name was Tamoni. They were all outside. And outta no where, they all check their phones and Tamoni's sucking dick on video, all over the internet.