Nothing Was The Same

ABOUT STARR And......

Days went on, and STARR AND JP were having sex every single day. They fell in love with each other every second of the minute. Every minute of the hour. IT WAS UNBELIEVABLE. Their relationship was like over the top from time to time. JP would tell Starr all the time that he loved her. She didn't say it back. She wasn't ready. She wasn't ready to say those words back. Because she knew that if she said it back, she would mean it. Which wasn't a bad thing. Because she really did love him. Starr was IN LOVE with JP. They were in-love with each other. Their parents loved them for each other. JP's mom just didn't agree with the age difference. But as the years went on JP's mom noticed that the age wouldn't stop them from being together.. They were each other's number 1 supporter. Starr fought bitches that talked about JP. She would curse guys out that talked about JP. I mean she went the whole 9 yards about him. And you're probably wondering, was it vice versa? I mean, yeah it was. Sometimes. He loved her though. Believe it or not. He really did. Remember, he played basketball. She was at every single practice. Every single game. She was always there. Then she missed ONE game and he was like really salty. But it didn't last long. He had gotten over it. The day she missed his game, they went out that same night. They had went downtown to Atlantic Station. They were in MOES, and it was packed as fuck. Girls were trying to flirt with JP. Boys were tryna get at Starr. And in her head, she was like, "WHAT THE FUCK?! Are you people fucking blind? I'm with my whole ass boyfriend.....". Anyway. That isn't important. The night was ending...and JP was supposed to drive back home, but Starr didn't want him too. JP's Mom had drove back home. JP and Starr were in the back KNOCKED OUT. She had fallen asleep with her head in his lap. And when they arrived at JP's house, she went upstairs and got in his bed, and went back to sleep. He came up, and woke her up asking if she wanted to smoke. She told him no, and to hurry because she was tired. So, he did as he was told.

Thanksgiving had come around. And JP entire family had drove down to Atlanta. They met Starr and of course they loved her. She was so easy to love. Her vibes were just everything. They could tell that she was right for JP. Just perfect. His grandmother had fallen in love with Starr. I'm sure that, if them two were older, she would've wanted them to get married and have her great grandchildren. I mean, I'm serious. His grandmother was a great woman. She was honest. Loveable, and most of all funny. Also very caring. His family was great. But Starr knew that if they ever were to break up, that his family doesn't owe her anything. They're only loyal to whoever he's loyal too. She knew that no matter how much they adored her, it'll always be about him. And not her, or their relationship. Was she okay with that? No. But she faced it. Starr was prepared for any and every thing. Always. It was in her blood. Starr was mature and honest. Which is also what made his family adore her. They couldn't believe that she was younger than him. But her age didn't matter to him. At all. He loved that girl. And it showed.

Christmas break had come. JP returned to his hometown where he was from. He was gone for like a good week. And boy, did they miss each other. She had gotten him a gift, and of course he had bought her some things. He went all out for that girl. He bought her a diamond bracelet. Yes, it was real. And he got her some nice things from Victoria Secert. It was simple. But to her, it was everything. When JP returned back from his trip, they had sex. Like alllllll day long. They missed each other. And it wasn't always about sex. Their relationship was real. It was very genuie. When you saw her, you saw him. When you saw him, you saw her. They were like one. Two peas in a pod. They were inseparable as fuck. Their bond was everything. The time that they spent together was very well cherished. ALWAYS. Starr was the type of person that, if she was about you, she was with you all the way. Not no half way fucking with you. I mean really. She gave her all in everything she felt deserved her all.

Months went by, JP had cheated on Starr. And she didn't know how to handle it so all she did was cry. And she promised herself not to love anyone else the way that she loved him. Losing JP hurt her like fuck. But she knew that she had to let go. Especially if she wanted to be happy. She felt like shit though. She had gave this boy her body. And maybe even her mind. He influenced her in so many ways that seemed unbelievable. And most importantly, impossible. Starr was naive as fuck to his bullshit. And every since they've broken up, (which was 3 years ago today) she hasn't been in a relationship with any other guy.

Starr started dating girls. She didn't want anything to do with no guys. Her first girl crush was this girl name, Desi. But it wasn't her first girl friend. It was Torry. The first to ever give her head. The first girl she ever really slept with, in high school. Torry was a junior. Remember Starr was a freshman. They had fallen for each other fast. But it was okay because they've known each other for 7 years.
Torry would always tell Starr that she loved her and of course she hesitated to say it back. She had just gotten her first heart break. She didn't wanna love anybody else. She felt betrayed. Misguided. And she couldn't talk to May about it because she wasn't supportive. All she did was judge Starr, and tell her bad things that she didn't or wasn't ready to hear. In a way, it motivated Starr, but deep down inside... it hurt Starr. Bad.

Torry and Starr were LOW-KEY. Very little few people knew about them. Starr had that good good, so you know Torry was in love. Not even the good good made her fall for Starr. Starr had an outstanding personality. It was easy to love her. But it wasn't easy for her to show her emotions. Which was what lead Torry to leave Starr alone. She wouldn't share her emotions with Torry. She was afraid. But Torry let her go. And Starr was okay with it. Believe me.

Desi came into Starr's life. But it wasn't their first time meeting. Starr fell for Desi HARD. Desi fall for her too but she wouldn't admit it. Until one day, she did. Desi went hard for Starr. Always. She believed in her. She was in love with her. They were made for each other. They completed each other. Everyone loved them together. They were together for a year and some months. Desi was crazy in love with Starr. Every time that they went out, guys would try to get at the both of them but little did they know that them two were a couple. They were both cute as fuck, so it was understable for guys to get at the both of them. Desi was the jealous girlfriend. Starr was the girlfriend who didn't care who tried to get with Desi because, she had Desi wrapped around her baby finger.

Starr and Desi dated for a year and 8 months. They never actually broke up though. It was like a marriage, separated but never finalized a divorce. They loved each other. But never ever said it. It was said when things got hard for one or other though. Other than that, those words never appeared. And when it did, they sure did mean it!

After the break-up with Desi and Starr , Starr stayed to her self. She didn't date anyone else. Even til this day TODAY, she hasn't allowed herself to be with anyone. She feel or felt as if she's too worthy to just throw herself onto anyone. And when someone did try and to be with her, or she thought she wanted to be with someone, she didn't. Starr wasn't the indecisive type of girl. If she made up her mind about something, she stuck to it. She never doubted herself. She always knew what she wanted, and not being with anyone was what she wanted.