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6. Trust.

The rain has stopped, I just wasted an hour sitting here, watching the rain.

The thing I was here to do is still pending. I don't know what I should do now because if I go home ,there's a lot of beating waiting for me.

And my life will be the same as always and the decision of ending this life will come back again.

Then why should I not do it now?

But the thought of Elijah and the chance of meeting him again is asking me to go through the pain and search for him.

The thought of his green eyes is stopping me from acting upon these irrational thoughts.

I get up and I start walking towards the end of the bridge.

I need to get home and get ready for the torture.

The thought of it is making me shiver.

I was walking when I heard Elijah's voice from behind and my heart jumped.

I look back and I see him running towards me.

The sky is clear now and the sun is out it feels like everything is gonna be okay.

"Hey" he says while breathing in and out I think he ran back to talk to me. What can be that important?.

"Hi" I slowly reply back. The wind is blowing it's cold because of the rain.

My clothes are wet but the amount of blood on them is a lot less now.

I start walking away.

"Where are you going?" He says walking next to me.

"Home and you ran back to ask me that?"

"No, actually I have something to tell you"

"What is that?" I reply back. I wonder what about what he wants to tell me. Maybe he wants to tell me that he's gonna tell someone that I was going to commit a sin.

"I want you to be the one I save" he replies looking at me.

"Huh?" What did he just say? Is this guy crazy or something?

"Did you not hear me?"

"Well first I did second you can't just say it out of no where" I reply back.

What is he trying to do?. I don't know whats happening?

"I am sorry but it's not out of nowhere" he says looking away. He's nervous.

"What do you mean by that?" I ask him

"I want to save you because your eyes desperately scream for someone to come and take you away from whatever you are going though." He says.

I look down. I don't know what to say, I do want someone to save me.

But how can anyone help me?

How?

"Because" he continues "for the first time in ten years, my heart ached for someone and let me tell you something that stopped happening a long time ago"

"What are yo..." I was going to say something but he steps closer to me and places his hands on my shoulders.

But I wince because my mother slammed me on the door 3 times and there is a cut on the left shoulder.

He lifts his hand back and move them to my elbows

but I take a step back.

I don't want him touching me. I am scared of that.

Because for a long time, whenever someone touched me ,it was to make me feel pain.

I can't take that trauma out of my mind.

"And I feel like Saving you might change my life"

Tears are welling up in my eyes because,
this is the first time someone ever said those words to me.

Someone is telling me that he wants to save me even when I don't Have the hope for that.

It's the first time my heart skipped a beat when I looked in someone's eyes.

It's the first time I feel like I am not alone.

I feel like taking a leap of faith and give myself up to the guy in front of me.

I want to believe him because those green eyes are not lying to me.

But my heart is asking me to believe him.

Because I was helplessly looking for help and there it is. Right in front of me. and I am tired to search more.

On the other hand my Brain is asking me to question everything, every little thing he's doing can just be a facade.

This might just be a joke that Lauren planned to hurt me more than usual.

She must have thought that physical torture is not enough for me.

"Please stop crying".

I didn't realize that I was crying till he pointed that out.

"I don't know what to do. Elijah" I say while looking at him.

"Believe me Raven" he says while looking into my eyes. I can see the sincerity. He's not lying.

"But what if..."

"I promise you there will be no more regrets".

I look down and I push my hair back. I am scared he can hurt me really bad. But it won't matter. Because it won't be able to do much damage. I'm already broken. Nothing can break me more.

But the way his eyes full with honesty, my heart feels like it doesn't need to worry about getting this time.

I'm taking this leap of faith.

I close my eyes and I take a step towards him. He looks at me.

"I trust you" I whisper while taking his hands in mine.

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