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16. Memories

Elijah's P.O.V:

After a full day of shopping, me and raven are going back home, today was unusual the way those outfits looked on her and the way they made me feel butterflies in my stomach is different than what I usually encounter when I look at girls. It was pure, it was cute.

Maybe I'm just reading too much into it. I feel like her protector that's why I feel so happy when I do things for her. The whole ride back to home is quiet and I don't mind it. Silence with raven is not haunting, its comforting.

Half an hour later, we reach our destination. Raven gets out of the car while I look at my phone, as it was vibrating as I was driving. There are text messages from random girls who want to hook up, normally I would have said yes, but now I don't need them. I don't need anyone to fill this void in me if I get to look at raven. I shift my focus on to raven, she's trying to carry all the bags into the house by herself. I chuckle to myself. She's adorable. Her hair is covering half of the face, they are enchanting. I like ruffling them more than I like breathing.

Well, that's over-exaggeration.

Stepping out of the car, I say "hey, give them to me"

"no, no you have already done a lot for me, let me do this myself" she replies without looking at me, trying to balance herself. Well if that's the case, I know for sure she won't let me carry them so there is only one thing to be done.

I speed walk towards raven and get behind her. She stops to look back at me, but before she could complete her action, she's already off her feet and in my arms. The shock on her face is clear as hell. I have picked her up bridal style, with the bags in her hands. "well if you won't let me carry the bags, I had to carry you, you see" I say with a slightly mischievous smile. Carrying her is nothing for me. It's the easiest thing ever because she is so underweight, which makes me worry. But shell be okay. I'll make sure of that.

With her in my arms, I walk into the house and albatross greets and takes the bags from her hand. I can see a faint smile forming on his lips as he has never seen me do things like this for any of the girls, I brought home.

"you can put me down now, Elijah," she says shyly, looking away from my face.

"Nah " I reply casually and walk into the kitchen. Her cheeks getting red is the best thing ever. She is trying so hard not to blush, she puts the back of her hand on her face, covering her cheeks. I chuckle and she gets more red. I walk around the kitchen to get some water. For that, I put her on the counter and put my hands on either side of hers. Looking straight in her eyes I say "now, don't move from here, ill be back kay?" she looks at me for a mere second and quickly looks away, nodding. I smile to myself; I'm acting all confident because that's how I act, but the heart in my chest is going crazy, it's beating like I'm dying and it's the last few seconds. Her eyes are so fucking beautiful. It takes so much courage to look in them, they tell so many stories, I want to sit with her and listen to her story all day long. I get some chocolates from the fridge and a water bottle. I walk back to her.

"here, "I say while handing her the chocolates and the bottle, she takes them from my hand. I lean closer to her, my heart going crazy in my chest, I whisper "wrap your arms around me ". Now she's not the only one whose blushing, I can't control it. She shyly wraps her arms around me, and I pick her up again bridal style.

She's trying to hide her pretty face and she buries it in my chest. Oh no she'll hear my heart. I look down on her and I see her eyes slightly open and look back up at me. I don't know how and why but my heart started calming down. It went back to normal. I walk up the stairs, without noticing, I walk past her room. And take her to my room.

Looking in her eyes, I put her down on my bed. And for a few seconds, we held our eyes together. I can't think, I am just looking at something I want to keep, forever and ever. Something I want to hold and love. Something that can calm me down, by just looking at me.

I move away from her, to calm my cheeks down. "eat the chocolate "I tell her.

"I'm not hungry"

"It doesn't matter. Chocolate isn't something you eat when you're hungry "

"... ahan, okay. I'll take a bite then."

"its four bars, raven, two for you two for me" I put up two fingers while saying that. She nods and opens it up. Breaking it in two even parts, she hands me one and takes the other one for herself. I take a bite and look back at her. She's looking at it like she's holding a diamond. "why are you looking at it like that" I ask her curiously, "it's something my dad used to bring for me, I didn't realize it before opening it." She replies to me. It's the first time she talked about something related to her. "it's been a while since I thought about him, ever since you came into my life." She tells me while looking at me.

"is that a bad thing" I question her statement.

"not really, this was a happy memory, usually I think about how things got worse when he left" she replied, looking down on her KitKat. "now that I think of, I haven't thought about any happy memories with him in a long while" her eyes starting to well up. "thank you" I look at her as she says those words "thank you for giving me a chance to think about him in a happy way" she looks back at me. I don't have an answer to that. I don't want to say don't say thank you nor I want to say that it is fine.

"I'll help you think about him in a happy way more often now" moving up from the bed and walking towards the door. I look back at her and say "and help you make more happy memories with me"