Reawakening

Part 34 Wait,....

The first seeds of rejection were sown.

"does she really not love me.."

"Do I want to listen to her no?"

Even the thought of it was not acceptable "how can she? Why will she? I have told her everything, she knows now, so she can't do that. Well if she doesn't then I will speak to Nani, who will talk to her family, then she will definitely listen to her Babuji"

It had never ever occurred to him that anyone could reject him. Did it have something to do with the constant mention of "most sought after bachelor..." by the media, girls swooning over him all the time.,.. and being a businessman, he was trying to make different plans in case one method fails. Hence, all he could think of was to somehow get her to accept, if not by her, then through her Babuji.

Perhaps, Devi maiyya must have laughed, "Destiny ha. Here he is sat afraid of a middle class girl rejecting him and plotting ways to get her.."

The more he thought about it, the more negative his thoughts were turning.

Trying to calm his mind, taking deep breaths, "You can deal with it Arnav, whatever it is there will always be a way.."

"Arnav ji, " he looked at her hopefully

"I know people have been talking about my marriage, but at the moment, marriage is the last thing on my mind. My life has changed in the last one year. And I don't need to say, since you have been there at every step. Even when you were not physically there, you have always kept a tab on everything."

Arnav looked at her with a sense of belonging and pride when she said this. That was in fact very very true. He knew everything about her either through his sis or somehow he managed to get information .

"This one year has taught me a lot of things. It was foolish of me to challenge you at every step. I did not know how big a man you were, how I had to talk to you, I honestly thought I could accomplish anything. You tried to drill into me every time we met, but I was in my own world, I didn't think it mattered what status or money I had. Little did I know about this big city, how people can take advantage (her mind was thinking of her sham engagement). Moreover, when I think of my behaviour at certain times, I cannot believe I had crossed my own moral boundary. Thanks to Devi maiyya, nothing happened and I was shown the right place... (This time it was her giving in to her emotions on the Diwali night when she was very well aware she was employed by him, and that too to train his.....)"

It pained to hear how much she had changed and how he was the reason for all of it. He hated himself for it. Though she had not mentioned, he knew it was the diwali incident she was referring to. He put his head down in shame and mouthed "Khushi". Could it get any worse? His only comfort, she had not spelt out the incidents.

Khushi, still looking far away, no where in particular, continued, "But now I know my limits, how to control my emotions. I know the power of money. What I was, my thoughts, my ideas, everything has changed, even my thoughts about marriage, well at least to an extent. I have a few things that I need to sort, I can't be thinking of marriage .."

However sad and dejected he was listening to her, first things first. Putting aside all his thoughts aside, he interrupted "But Khushi, everybody, I mean your Buaji, Di, now NK's mum"

Slowly Khushi looked at him, laughing slightly, "Arnav ji, Buaji has been talking about our marriage since we were 12 or 13. Di, you know is always teasing" looking confused, "where does Nk's mum come into picture "

Surprisingly for Arnav, he was for once having a calm conversation putting aside all his own fears. His only consolation, she had not said "No" to him. Aaaaaaa well at least for now, his mind said.