• i don't even know what to write. today is a HORRIBLE day. Last night was a HORRIBLE night. i don't know what to do. i am very upset, and nothing is helping. it's hard to talk to people, especially when no one cares. i don't want to burden anyone. i don't want to force anyone to feel bad for me. i'm not looking for pitty, so i'm keeping it to myself. i'll deal with it in my own ways.
• i'm in love. only one person. only one. i've shut down just to focus on one person. i can't seem to figure out i'm too ugly and my personality sucks too much, in order for her to love me back. i don't know. i just wish i could, but i'm stuck thinking it will change. i know it won't. ever.
