Blank Face (Ticci Toby x Reader)

Ch.18 Choices

-Your pov

It's been about a week on the road. I missed my siblings a lot. I was recovering, but not very fast. We stopped on the side of the road to rest. I had to silently cry myself to sleep. I slept ok, but I woke up before everyone else and couldn't go back. The sun was starting to come up so I decided to sit in the grass by a couple trees to watch it. I couldn't stop thinking about what I did. I killed her and I enjoyed it. I would like to think that there was reason behind it. She might have locked them in the closet during the winter. I wouldn't know for sure though because I was stuck in my room most of the time. Part of me thought that there might have been another way, but another part said that Jane deserved it. I couldn't choose a side. Should I become a killer, or should I keep the remaining sanity I have?

-Toby pov

I woke up to the sun starting to reveal itself. I looked to see Y/N in the field not too far away from the cars. She looked the same way she always did the past few days. Depressed. I carefully opened the door and made my way towards her.

"Did he win?" Y/n asked. I had to think a moment before remembering her dream and the night she killed Jane.

"N-no. You h-had a reason. Ja-Jane locked y-your siblings in th-the closet. I would kill her if she locked my sister in a closet." I replied before sitting down next to her.

"You have a sister?" She said. My eyes got a little blurry from the tear in my eyes. I took a deep breath to stop myself from crying.

"Once. A c-car crashed in-nto us. I was hurt pret-ty bad. Sh-she died in the hospital. It w-wasn't long after that w-when I became Slen-derman's proxy." I explained before I could feel the ground below us and the wind. Y/n held my hand tightly while looking at me.

"I'm sorry Toby.   There are not enough words to say how sorry I am." She whispered before wrapping her arms around me. I couldn't help but hug her back.

"Toby     I've been thinking about what I should do the past few days. Should I keep myself together and not kill again?     Or should I embrace being a killer?" Her question was a little random. I didn't know what to think as we let go. I took a deep breath as I put my words together.

"That is y-your choice. Not mi-ne. Not Slenderman. It's y-yours and yours alone." I replied before we heard Masky calling us back to the cars. She didn't talk much when we got back on the road. Almost two hours went by and she still had her head against the window while her E/C eyes watched the land pass. I wanted more than anything to pull over and comfort her in every way possible. I was about to reach for her hand before my phone started ringing. I reluctantly grabbed it.

"What Jeff?" I said as I turned my eyes away from Y/N and back on the road.

"There's a gym up ahead that's closed. Ben is going to shut down the security so that we can go in and get shit from the vendors and maybe shower as well." Jeff said as Masky and Hoodie leaned over my shoulder to listen.

"O-k we'll be r-right behind you guys." I replied before hanging up.

"Finally, a chance to take a shower." Masky said as he sat back. It was a race to the showers once we reached the gymnasium. Most of us were done showering so we went to the main lobby and started breaking into the vending machines while y/n sat on a bench in deep thought. I couldn't figure out what was going through her mind. Did I say something wrong? Does she hate me?

"She's been really quiet." Jeff stated bringing me back to the real world.

"The last few days have been shitty for her." Ben explained before I smashed the glass. We grabbed what we could before going through the others. I looked back to the bench to find y/n gone.

-Your pov

The breeze was nice and the sunlight was warm as I sat down on the curb. I made up my mind, but I was scared of what everyone would think of my decision. Especially Toby. 

"I w-was wondering w-where you went." A voice said before I looked to see Toby. He sat down with me. I was quiet. Asking myself if I should ask him or not. 

"Would you hate me if I decided what I wanted to be?" I asked hesitantly. Toby was quiet. It was making me nervous. 

"The way I-I feel about you wi-will never change. I-it won't change a-any of us." He replied with a comforting smile. I couldn't help but smile back at him. 

"Toby! Y/n! We need to get going!" Jack shouted from the cars. I sighed as we got up. I started walking to the cars when I noticed that Toby wasn't next to me. I looked back to see him still standing on the sidewalk. I walked back up to him wondering if something was wrong. He looked a little nervous. He carefully grabbed my hands and struggled to look at me. Something must be wrong.

"Y/N?" He said with his voice shaking a little.

"Yes Toby?" I replied as he shifted side to side shyly. His grip on my hands tightened a little. He struggled to look into my eyes.

"D- do you    st-still like me?" He asked nervously. Neither one of us moved. It was quiet. Almost as if we were the only people in this world. I was still for a second before gently kissing him. My spirits rose as he brought me closer, running his fingers through my hair. It was a strange but wonderful feeling. I eventually separated my lips from Toby's and rested my forehead against his. Meeting Toby was one of the best things that happened to me. I can't imagine life without him. I can finally tell him.

"I love you."