When Will I Fall?

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Well, as you guys should know, I had been going through a bad time do to some family problems at home. Also do to some, emotional draining events, throughout the last months of last year. So mainly, a lot of shit has been going down. Aside from that note, I hope you like this chapter, enjoy. ❄

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Ryder's POV

Holding her tightly in my embrace, I felt a hand pushing me away. I look down and saw Echo with her hand on my chest, averting her eyes from me. This somewhat saddened me. I thought for a bit and decided to say something to comfort her. "Echo-" But I was soon cut off by Echo's hand. Stopping me from saying anything any further.

"Stop... Not another word. So, to clarify, for the past few years of torturing me and making me your emotional and physical punching bag, you just suddenly started caring about me after the fact I came from the hospital for the hundredth time and when I finally decided it wasn't worth it anymore and try to end it all?"

Awkwardly and nervously, rubbing the back of my neck, I gave her an unsure smile. "From anyone's view of perspective, one could have thought of a theory like that, yes. But-" I soon cut off by her once again. "So, you're not denying it? Is because I tried to take my own life, you might get some publicity out of this to be deemed the 'hero' that saved his own 'wife' from falling to her death?!" She screamed.

To say that I was shocked or stunned, would be an understatement. To make her think that I would be so low, so cruel, to do any sort of horrid act ... Would be the most appropriate thing that she could ever think of, in the whole history of our marriage.

"Whoa, Echo. No, That's not it at all." Echo's face soon turned red and saw she was growing furious. "Are you sure? Cause it sure fucking feels like it!" I simply sighed. Knowing this will end up being an unwanted heated argument. "Echo, I swear. It's not like that at all."

Trying to get closer to and wanting to calm her down, I try to reach out to her but she slapped my hand away. Getting angrier and angrier by the minute. Then she screamed, "Then what is it?! WHAT, just WHAT made you care about me all of a sudden?! Because the last I checked, you didn't give a damn about me for the past 2 and half years!!"

Unsure if I can maintain myself not to snap at her any shape or form, I took a deep breath and relax, trying to calm myself. "Echo, that's not the reason. Believe me. I do care about you, I want the best for you. I just-" She scoffs and rolls her eyes in disbelief.

"You? Want the best for me? Don't make me laugh. Since when do you care about what's best for me? When?!" I don't know what to say. I'm trying to reason with her as a civil human being for once but she just won't listen. Now I know, how she must have felt while dealing with me. "Echo, I know you find this hard to believe, mainly because of the fucked up shit I put you through, but please understand that I do care."

Scoffing, for what seems for what was like the hundredth time, she laughed sarcastically. "Why, is the question that I'm asking. Why do you care?" Not knowing what to say next, all I mustered out to say is, "W-well, because... Because-" But had to cut off by her screaming. "Because of what?! Please, oh please, do tell me! Why do you care?!"