letters of love

A valuable lesson

Shattered with his irresponsible behaviour Mr Black gets back home with his eyes swollen with tears. He gets into his room and closes the door and locks it. He closes all the lights of the room and sits in a corner on the carpet and cries out. He cries out for being a failure as a son, as a brother, and as a sensible human, who couldn't identify between true love and a fake love. He cries, for he feels responsible for the situation his brother was in. He cries, as he finds himself guilty for not providing his mother with all the necessities that she might have needed during last few days of her life. Looking at the luxury of his room makes him realise how comfortable he was living in his lavish mansion leaving his mother in all discomfort. The life he was living was actually a gift that he got from his mother. She made him a successful man. She struggled hard to provide them with every necessity and when it was his time to pay his mother back he left her alone. He dislikes his own personality and hates himself for what he has done to his own mother.
" I failed to be a good son, mom. Today I am a very rich man mom, but I failed to be a good human. People call me a gentleman, because they don't know what I have done to my own mother. My regrets are of no use mom. Oh god! Please help me" he cries out loud. "My life is empty now. I have no reason to live. I have harmed my people, my own mother. I am good for nothing. I wish mom, I wish you were here and I would have never troubled you again. I would have been avery good son." His thoughts breaks, as his only pet fluffy gets into the room and drops a box from his study table and gets stuck in it. Mr Black rushes to help fluffy come out of that box.
"Come here you kitty. I don't want to upset you as I have disappointed all my loving relations." Mr Black rubs his hands against fluffy head and notices the box. He finds his mothers letter inside that. His feeling of happiness had no end. He opened the envelope as a hungry man would open a box of food. Looking at his mothers writing, he kisses the paper as he was kissing his mother and hugs the letter and cries out loud.... "I love you mom. I am sorry for what all I did to you." Controlling the flood of tears, he starts reading the letter.

Dear son,
I love you, and I love you the most. You are my life and a reason for me to breathe on this earth. I lost my desire to live my life when I lost your father. Your fathers death left me with tears and hopelessness. But your love, gave me strength to stand up and fight the world. Life is not easy for a single mother son, and that too when she is young. I have faced a lot of troubles in my life but every time I despair in problems, your smile and your eyes gave me strength to stand up fight the world again. I still remember those assuring hands of yours, which was too small to assure me but still they did. You came to me, hugged me and said... "Mom, don't worry, your elder son is there for you. Ill be your strength, ill take care of you and ill love you forever. Ill get all the happiness for you. Please don't cry." Those words of yours gave me power. I smiled and cried. I smiled for your innocence and cried for my fears. But that day I decided ill never let you feel sad. Ill never let those tears get into your beautiful eyes ever again in my life. I tried doing that son but being a mother is also not an easy job. At times you have to take a decision which is very hard and hurting for the child in the present situation but always proves to be a blessing in their later life. Being a mother, even I had to make such hard decisions. Few decisions you agreed but to few, you hated me for the rest of your life. I am your mother son and I will never in my wildest dream think to harm you or hurt you. Hurting you, hurts me more. It kills me inside but I can't show you son. You hate me for few harsh decisions that I have made for you, but I don't blame you for that. Because it was my fault. I taught you to respect every relation but never made you respect our relation. I never let you feel how much pain I have taken to nurture you two brothers. I never made you realise my efforts, and the reason for my decision. I was a overconfident mother. I thought my son will always recognise my efforts and will respect my decisions and will always respect me for that. I took it for granted and never taught you about my efforts. I never had any complains from you my son, as it was my fault not to teach you how to respect your mothers efforts. Parenting is not an easy thing son. Every parent lacks some where or the other. No parent is perfect. There are always loop holes left in every parenting. I wish I would have not made that mistake. Even I would have enjoyed to be with my both son as other people do. Anyway, its of no use to write about all this now. This is my last letter to you my son. ( Mr Black starts crying profusely reading that line) I am on the death bed. Sam is trying to save me by spending all his assets on me. I don't know what will happen to him when I am gone. He is a man with a lot of self respect,son. He will never tell about his troubles to anyone. And I also know you my dear son. After reading all my letters you will surely understand that your mother loved you and was not wrong. And this thought will surely kill you inside. You will burst into tears of regret and failure. You will close yourself in a dark room and will never wish to see the bright world again. But, no my son. My intention for writing these letters was never to push my rising star into darkness. My soul intention was to drag you from the darkness of misunderstandings and hate and get you into a world which is filled with love, happiness and generosity. Son, you think you loved Christine. But you actually never loved her son. When you love someone you love everything about that person, even their flaws. But, I am sure after knowing the real face of Christine, you hate her. You cannot accept her with her flaws. That is because you never loved her son. Her few things matched your ideal choice and you thought she is the only one. Which is not true. I know at this moment you must be shattered and not willing to get into any relationship. But for my sake son get married. I know you must be not willing to find anyone for you, so follow your mothers advice and marry someone who loves you. Because the one who loves you will show the real world of love which I want you to see. How I wish I would be a part of your wedding, but I won't be able to be there for you and I am sure this thought will hurt you and you will not be able to enjoy your wedding. And I know my son. Your feeling of regret for not being able to serve your mother in her last days will always hurt you. But son, your mother is not the only mother who has taken pains. Every mother takes pains and not every child is good to his mother. There is no use to regret now son. It will only push you into the darkness of failure. Correct your mistake son. Serve every parent who is in pain. Help every old hand to cross the road. Provide every ill lady in hospital who have no one to pay their bill. Get Mrs Stacy to your house son and serve her as you would serve me. Every time she smiles at you, think its your mother smiling at you. Every time she blesses you, think its your mother blessing you. You must be thinking, how I know about the lady working in your office.... Hahaha son, I am your mother and I keep myself updated with what's happening in your life. Its just that I am worried about sam. I don't know what will happen to him after I am gone. He has a lot if self respect. He will never ask for help to anyone. Not even you. Son its your job to provide him help in such an indirect way that he doesn't realise that some one is helping him. He needs your help. He had sold all his assets to pay my bills and buy medicines for me. Ok son, its time for me to end my letter bit before that son always remember my words.... Value relations when they are with you, because once they are gone they leave you with scar of regret in your heart. This is your new life, and you will live it to the fullest as I lived for you, you have to live for me. I want you to have kids and I want you to experience parenting. It's a great pleasure to watch your little ones grow into adults and then treating you as a child.

Love you my son.

As the letter ends Mr Black bursts out into tears as he knew that this was his mothers last letter to him. While crying he realises that its time to stop crying and correct the mistakes he has done in the past. He recollects his mother saying she did not write this letter to push him into darkness. Instead she had written the letter to get him out if his guilt. He wipes his tears as now he does not want to disappoint his mother. He stands up and walks straight out of the room. And to his surprise it was morning. The thick curtain of his room did not make him realise that it was morning now. He had cried the whole night. It was a lovely Christmas morning. All the staff was on a holiday and Mr.Black decides to drive by himself to  Ms Stacy's house. On his way he finds a small boy selling flowers. He takes all the flowers from him and reaches Ms stella's house. Ms stella was sitting out her armchair in the corridor of her house. As Mr black comes, Ms Stella tries to stand up, but Mr Black stops her by holding both her shoulders and gently pushes her back to her chair. "Please sit down Ms Stalla. Merry christmas" Mr Black wishes Ms stella and gives her the bunch of flowers and begins his conversation as she thank him for the flowers.
"Thank you Sir"
"Please don't call me Sir. Call me son."
"Thank you son" ms stella smiles. And Mr Black starts crying.
"What's wrong with you my son? I have always seen you stand strong, it must be a very big pain which might have made you cry." Mr Black puts his head on her laps and keeps quiet for a while.
"Yes ms stella, i am in a great pain. Mistakes that i have made in past will not let me live peacefully now, until I correct them. I loved my mother the most Ms stacy. But I was not a good son. I was not there for her when she needed me the most. You call me a gentleman. You call my parents to be lucky. But I find my parents to be the most unluckiest person in the world for having a son like me. I want to correct my mistakes Ms stacy. My mother has given me one chance to correct my mistakes. And I don't want to disappoint her this time."
Ms stacy was puzzled with what Mr Black was saying. She could not understand any thing as she did not know anything about his past. But she could see the pain in his eyes and regret in his voice. She pats his head with love and wipes his tears.
"Don't cry son. I am with you and will always be with you. I don't know what has happened in your life that has made you realise your mistakes, but at least you realised. I am sure where ever your mother must be, she will surely forgive you. Mothers have a big heart. They don't even take a minute to forgive their child."
"My mother never had any complains from me Mrs Stacy, forget about forgiving.... But I failed to be a good son." Replies Mr Black and weeps.
"Don't cry my son. Keep patience" Mrs stacy wipes his tears and consoles her. Soon they reach to Mr Blacks house. Mr Black shows Mrs stacy her room and comforts her and ask permission to go and finish one of his pending work.