Rumi

sixteen.

it's been forever, i know! 😭 don't hate me lol. i can explain 😅

but for nowwww, enjoyyyy! 💖

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december 4th.
miami, fl ❦

audriana ibanez

"How you feelin'?"

I shrugged. "I don't know, I'm okay I guess."

"Okay." My mom nodded, fixing my blankets around me. "Angel's on his way. You want me to send him up when he gets here?"

I nodded. "That's fine. Where's Kenz?"

"She fell asleep on the couch, I had to wake her up and send her to her room. Need me to wake her f-"

"No no, it's okay. I was just making sure she was okay. I know she was really worked up earlier." I sighed. "She doesn't even want to be around me anymore, mom. Probably thinks I'm disgusting for allowing something like that to happen."

My mom took a seat on my bed next to me. "Now you know that is not true, Rumi. She doesn't know how to deal with what went on today, honey. She probably doesn't want to say or do the wrong things to make you upset or anything of that sort."

"She can't make me upset, though. She had nothing to do with it and I told her that." I felt myself beginning to get upset again. "I need her more than anything right now and it's like she doesn't even want to be there for me."

"It's not that she doesn't want to be here for you, Dri. I'm sure she would love to be here for you, laying right here next to you." She patted the spot she was sitting in. "She probably just doesn't know how. She's never been through anything like this, Audri."

I wiped the tears that fell. "I haven't either, mom. It's all new to her just like it's all new to me. I've never had to go through anything like this. Ever. But the fact that I'm going through it and I feel like my best friend- my sister- doesn't even want to be there for me..." I shook my head. "It makes it so much harder to deal with."

"Oh, honey." My mom hugged me, rocking me side to side. "She'll come around, trust me. This is something new for all of us, and as a family, we have to figure out how to deal with it together an-"

The doorbell rang, causing my mom to stand up from where she was sitting on the bed. "I'm guessing that's Angel. You ready for company?"

"Yea." I nodded. "You can send him up."

She kissed my forehead before sending me a soft smile and walking out of the room. A few seconds later, I could hear her and Angel's voices, but I couldn't tell exactly what they were saying.

Biting my nails, I listened as Angel's footsteps echoed up the stairs and down the hallway to my room.

"Come in." I said just loud enough for him to hear on the other side of the door as he knocked a few times.