i typed this up & completely forgot so i'm putting this out before i fall asleep. it hasn't been proofread & edited so ignore the mistakesss. enjoyyyy! 💖
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december 17th.
miami, fl ❦audriana ibanez
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"Please stop..." I cried.
I tried to roll over, but it felt like a ton of bricks were resting on top of my body.
I heard a deep chuckle. "I shoulda put more shit in there. She still resistin'."
"She's a fighter." I heard a softer voice giggle.
I felt his rough hands slide up my thigh before I tried my hardest to kick him away from me.
"I think you should stop, Dri." Another soft, familiar voice chimed in.
A scoff came from next to me. "I think you just jealous." His rough hands found my face, turning my head to the front. "Look at me, baby. Open ya eyes. Look at me."
I tried, with everything in me, to lift my eyelids. To just open my eyes so I could see what was really unfolding in front of me.
So I could see who was doing this to me.
I tried so hard. So so hard.
*
"Baybeh, wake up."
I jumped up, feeling the sweat dripping from my forehead. "I-I'm sorry."
"It's okay. You good?"
"Yea."
Angel searched my face. "C'mea."
Scooting closer to him, I wrapped my arms around his torso and laid my head on his chest. It didn't take long for one of his hands to find my butt and the other to find my hair.
I pulled my duvet up to my neck, cuddling into him even more if that was possible.
"Anotha' dream?"
I slowly nodded. "Something like that."
Silence came over us, but I knew it was only because he didn't want to pressure me into talking about it. I hadn't told him, or anyone for that matter, about what happened at work.
Part of me felt like I should, but the other part of me felt like if I just pretended none of this happened then maybe I would really start to believe it.
I don't want to live with these demons forever.
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december 22nd.
miami, fl ❦